The Love For Lithium Iron

2012-01-16T07:13:00.001-08:00

I am currently typing this through my phone.
It's like a mike test thing now.
It's amazing that phones can do so much.
It's your 350 calculator that u can bring in exam halls.
It's your home computer which probably needs 2 grown man to carry.
It's your diary, it forms of pictures and messages and statuses.

And I updated and restored my iOS 5 today, although I am actually quite reluctant but then the thing crashed on me so like finally I did it lah.
But it's actually funner then I thought it would be lah and like everything so new so I excited also la.
My messaging thing can include super cute emoticons ok. Lovesss.
Ok gotta go download more apps bye!

PS : it's 11.11 and I wish for happiness and simplicity in life for 2012. :) goodnight everyone

Keelyn <3

may what come, comes.

2012-01-11T17:30:00.000-08:00

so tell me, do you still try and try and try again,
when you tried making amends, put in the effort, talked, but no one cares to listen.

i understand that you can't possibly have the best of both worlds, but is it wrong to try to make those 2 collide?

you say i don't care but did you ask?
you say you're my friend but did you trust me?
did you try or did you give up on this long ago?

i agree, everything is more complicated now.
we were hurt, yes.
you and i both did things we didn't mean and shouldn't do in fact.

but do you give death sentence to someone just because of one mistake?
well, i tried and if you're not going to put in the effort, i won't too.
i love you, really i do.
but this is getting old and there's only so much i can take before i give up, honey.

i never believed that anyone would die without another person.
our own existence is our own doing, afterall.
it doesn't relate to the existence of anyone else.
but it would be really wonderful if i have you in my life.

so now, it's up to you.
you in or you out?

keelyn

one of those days

2012-01-04T01:53:00.000-08:00

when you feel happy one moment, incredibly overwhelmed and tired and sad the next.
my feelings all like super mixed up can.
annoyed, frustrated then thankful and happy.

but i believe good things will happen.
and greater things are in store.
lol wtf like so optimistic suddenly.

BUT. its just the 4th day of 2012, and takkan lah wanna so down right.
can't wait for the weekend.

going up up UPPPPP! hee.
:D

gotta go back to my contracts tutorial now, le sigh.

love,
keelyn

ps: it's the little things you do.

deep thoughts.

2011-12-26T07:48:00.000-08:00

26 december, 26 things

2011-12-26T00:48:00.000-08:00

1. being happy

2. good food

3. awesome company

4. understanding that everything might not be in the best situation (as you expect them to be) but still, it is wonderful as it is.

5. being contented

6. feeling confident

7. the smell of something baking in the oven (especially something cinnamon-ey, YUMM!)

8. finally letting go

9. a good movie/book/ nice CD

10. presents and surprises!

11. not fb-ing/twitter-ing.

12. doing something meaningful for someone/with someone

13. beaches

14. cloudy, windy weather

15. the feeling you get after a good workout

16. pretty clothes and shopping

17. eating the food you love/is craving for

18. blogging LIKEABOSS

19. birthdays and christmases and weddings

20. you! =)

21. waking up looking pretty

22. nice smelling shampoos

23. my busuk pillow lol

24. family and great friends

25. the fact that i am still very much alive

26. the new year and its hopes and promises

have a very happy boxing day everyone! =D

love,
keelyn

the longest post in my blog ♥

2011-12-23T23:16:00.000-08:00

8 more days and its a new year, we'll soon be ushering in 2012.
it's amazing how a year pass by as it is ehh.
some days i am surprised, some days not.
well, its been approximately 4 days since my birthday, and i want to say that...

I AM OFFICIALLY 20!!!! =D
hehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehe

next year and i can enter Zouk (and all other clubs) without worrying about police raid ady! *insert smiles*

well, being 20... truthfully, at first I didn't like it at all. that whole day, in general. a few reasons lahhh ;

i) i had classes and was busy THE WHOLE DAY
ii) i felt like i didn't do anything meaningful or take 326437468262 pictures that day which makes it all the more meaningless
iii) i felt like after the celebration, i didn't matter. my birthday didn't matter. it just felt sooo... insignificant.

i think i am going through some kind of middle age crisis. TEEN-ager going to young adult ok. sad wan you know.
i can't blame my teenage hormones for everything anymore sigh.
but as peiting said, we can now look forward to blaming menopause lol wtf.

SO I AM SORRY IF I WAS JUST QUIET-ER OR EMO-ER OR BEING A PAIN IN THE *SS OR A SPOILED B*ITCH THAT DAY.

joanne, calvin, regina, and rosh, SORRYYYYYY AND THANKS FOR UNDERSTANDING. i <3 you guys. =)

but then i realized (thanks to the foreverwise and awesome roshwini enfys muthiah) that birthdays wasn't just about that day itself. it was about from the birthday of last year's to this year's.
what you did, where' you've been, how you've changed etc.

and i can at least proudly say i did loadsss. made new friends, lost some old ones. found out some inconvenient truth, forgive, been forgiven, love, cried, laughed very hard, had fun, and most importantly, had gorgeous people (inside out) be with me through all the amazing things in my life this year.

2011 was definetely different from 2010 but isn't that what growing up is all about? being able to adapt to changers, be it good or bad and become a better person from all that? *woah so philosophical lol*

and omg THANK YOU FOR YOUR PRESENTSSSSS! like once the mid-age crisis passed i like super excited about the gifts all d can. =P

thank you Regina for your scarf from Mongolia lol. sooo pretty! =)

BUT YOU STILL OWE ME ONE REAL LIFE PENGUIN THAT CAN MAKE PENGUIN SOUND AND EAT FISH OK.

thank you tay pei ting for the wonderful, practical face mask that i'll use for sure! haha when giving me this she's like 'nah, i know you'll like his present 'cause you're obsessed with face masks' lol wtf.
but thank youuuu! i memang will use, haha!

thank you roshwini enfys muthiah for the amazing amazing wine glass that has beautiful stone studs which you added by yourself, i know you think i didn't really like it BUT i want you to know that in fact, I LOVED IT!! i'll just like keep it and stare at it lahh cz so pretty how to use kan. scared pecah, the stones terkeluar, dirty etc etc.
lol
and secondly, your tee. haha i loveeee the orange, not my usual choice in colours but thats why i'm all the more grateful 'cause you remembered what i said! awww, you're the bestestest i swear. and your explanations of the interpretations you guys had on 'coming soon...' ahem. haha! thankssssss! <3
and most of all, the best present yet, the time capsule. i cannot begin to explain how important that letter was (but if it helps, i bawled my effing eyes out), and although its supposed to be received 5 years from now, i am still glad i got it this year because it reminded me the bond we have, and will always have, as well as with peits =) and i just am sooo glad i have someone like you in my life and let's just forever be this close aites? we'll tell stories of our school times to our kids and do motherly chores like grocery shopping and caning and etc together ok! =) i <3 you. hehe.
and for everything that you are especially, thank you.

thank you sher lee, regina, rachel, joanne, yen mei, jackson, ang kai yang, and more if there is whoever which i missed out for the wonderful surprise in CLCR2013. lol.
i know all of our schedules on that day was clashing and for you guys (especially sherlee and yenmei and regina) to rush over to get the present and the cake and make me believe that there was a talk that i must must must go and just thank you lahhhh! i know you guys put alot of hard work into this, and i am forever grateful for that effort, more than anything and also the MNG red shirt damn chio lorrr, haha thankssss! <3

and you. thank you! i know you think i didn't like the bag (which i did duh) but i am glad and for the surprise you and the best friends planned 2 weeks ago lol and i am just happy right now, really happy. =)
thanks for everything.

and for those who are not here physically like ong wei jiun (my no 1 blog fan lol) , rachel, teoh jie sheng, sania, aflah and kelvin lee heng khai THANK YOU FOR CALLING/SMSING/FB MSGING! i feel your faraway love lahh ok. haha, so thank you terima kasih, xie xie and sekian one malaysia ok. lol.

anywaysss, its a few hours to christmas and i have to go bath 'cause i am going out with the family in a while so that's all for now!

Merry Christmas my lovelies! ♥

keelyn ♥

acting cute

2011-12-14T00:31:00.001-08:00

apparently, is my forte.
or at least that's what i've been told, growing up.

it's bad really, hearing what people think about you.
like i think you're this and this and this. and you grow up believing all that.
so really, the you right now is not really you but an inception of the you people want you to become.

makes sense?

anyways, i've realised how to upload pictures straight from my phone to this blog and so i will lessen the copy paste pictures from tumblr as from now on.
unless it's pictures of pure deliciousness such as this below.

hot <3

^ or something deep and wise and meaningful like this lol.

anyways, i saw a Christmasy ball with santa and a penguin the other day while shopping.

like if you know me, you'd know my (teeny,weeny,little) obsession with penguins. the cutest animals evahhh omg dies.
and so when i saw i was wondering whether i should buy anot lah, because its like rm20 something but then damn cute can.
but then think think like waste money only, so i successfully RESTRAINED myself la.

i took a picture to remember it by lor, le sigh.
god knows i've spent too much this month.

like for example, i start having these fetish for gold stuff.
gold earrings, gold necklaces, gold rings etc.

so i bought these at jonkers the other day. happy girl is happy =)

anyways, my hair is growing longer! =) hopefully it won't be long till my hair reaches my waist!

=D

love,
keelyn

Since the start of 2011 I've:

2011-12-10T09:39:00.000-08:00

bold what you’ve done:

Gotten a new piercing. (my earlobes! hee)
Dyed my hair. (to black which then turned back to reddish-brown wtf.)
Ended a relationship. (for good.)
Started a new relationship.
Been on a long car/bus journey. (more than once lahh lol)
Passed an exam.
Met someone who’s now an important part of my life. ( =D )
Cried on someone’s shoulder.
Had a massive fight with a boy/girl. (but we made up lah )
Received flowers.
Had a Valentine.
Written a letter using pen & paper. (is there another way to write a letter? =.= )
Gone to see a therapist.
Been prescribed medication by a doctor. ( vitamins! )
Read a really good book. ( more than one, instead! hee. )
Gone to the zoo.
Spent too much money on unnecessary things. ( story of my life, fml. T.T )
Traveled by train.
Cried over a member of the opposite sex.
Spent the day out in the sun getting a tan.
Slammed a door out of frustration.
Had an anxiety attack.
Babysat for a friend’s child.
Had a BBQ. ( green gathering! =D )
Gone to the fair.
Gone bowling.
Seen a film at the cinema in 3D.
Gone on a date.
Been the only sober one on a night out.
Helped someone home after they had been drinking.
Stayed up all night.
Talked on the phone for over two hours. ( after 12 hehe)
Supported someone who’d received bad news.
Watched some kind of live sporting event. ( liverpool vs swansea, liverpool vs chelsea. or arsenal )
Read an entire book in one day.
Bought a DVD the day it was released.
Eaten McDonald’s more than four times in a single week.
Cried as a result of exam stress.
Met some incredible new people.
Gone to great parties.
Fallen backwards off a chair.
Broken my glasses.
Worn a watch for the first time in years.
Cried over someone in the past.
Spent hours aimlessly browsing the internet. (tumblring lol)
Thrown up.
Cried over a film.
Gone out of my way to avoid an ex-boy/girlfriend.
Fought with someone in public. ( over jeans wtf =.= )
Been in a relationship for a year or longer.
Cried in front of someone I adore.
Lost one of my closest friends.

soon to be goodbye, 2011.

love,
keelyn~

say truth.

2011-12-08T08:24:00.000-08:00

my midterms are officially over.
like FINALLY.
*hallelujah~ *

days and nights of police act 1967 and section this and section that, sub this is all done with. at least until the finals, which is 4 weeks away plus plus wtf fml.

but i am trying to be as positive as i can be right now and think of happy thoughts.
happy, happy thoughts.
like the holidays. raining weathers. sleep. good food. shopping.
=)

if you notice, its that time of the year again.
yessss, its december! =)) [ my most very favorite time of the year]
i have sooo many reasons why i love this month so much!

1. CHRISTMAS!! its like my 2nd most favorite season of the year (with diwali being my first! goodfoodomgyumm hee. ) the carols, the decorations, the sales, the happy jolly spirit, EVRYTHING ABOUT CHRISTMAS IS WONDERFUL! <3

2.THE YEAR END SALES OMG! ok so i may talk all manly and tough and like i don't give two shits about stuff or i may look like i wear the same shirt every.single.damn. day. but i am a hormonally active normal FEMALE and shopping? well it comes as a second nature to me. =)
i remember rosh said before once to peits that peits is the type of shopper that shops fast and efficiently gets the things she wants. rosh is the type that rarely shops but when she does, she splurges. and i am the type of shopper that shops ALOT and SPLURGES. wtf sad, no self control is bad.

i almost bought a eyelash curler and fibre eyelash extension thing (worth RM150 ++) ONCE because the salesgirl is so convincing wtf. easily influenced like hell. le sigh.

3. BIRTHDAYSSSSS! not only yours truly (20 DECEMBER!! =D ) BUT sherlee's (31 december!) , joanne's (29 december!) and rachel's (19 december!) so happy can everyone born same happy month! lol. all cool people are december babies lahhh. ahemMEahem.

but then alot birthdays = alot $$
T.T
but nevermindlah, still fun la, everyone birthday one after another like so togetherness like that lol wtf.

on a totally unrelated note, this guy's body is droolicious. 0.o
YUMM.

ps: you can't say truth but i understand your truth. =)

flying off with Peter Pan now,
love,

Keelyn

very happy i is.

2011-12-05T05:07:00.000-08:00

and i don't know why.
abit like i reached my own stage of nirvana i guess.
which reminds me, apparently according to my Contracts lecturer, great monks when die and cremated, their sisa-sisa (i mean ashes) will contain pretty red ruby-like beads.

0.o

amazing or what.

i like listening to radio at night. they have some pretty good songs at night.
no, not those overplayed shit you hear 24/25 of the times.
better songs.
like this.

okay fine so no you don't.
but this is my current favorite song so i just want to fling that in your face.

but still, they DO really have some pretty good songs at night. =)

on a totally irrelevant note, i think weddings are really beautiful.
but you know, strangely, i never really thought of the kind of wedding i'd want.
since young, never.
how it should be, the flower arrangements, my gown, etc.

you could say i lack a girly childhood, but then again i played my fair share of masak-masak, father mother and fairies.
i learned piano (but then stopped), i learned guitar (and stopped too), i learned swimming (and stopped as well)
ok wtf now it seems like i am an underachiever in all aspects.
sad.

going to go to a corner and draw circles now bye.

love,
keelyn

i say

2011-11-25T22:24:00.001-08:00

that you're a two faced bitch and that you should get a taste of your own medicine and that you're not even THAT pretty anyways and that you deserve a first class ticket to go to hell.

but truth is, i pity you.
that you lead such a sad life that trash talking people is a sort of entertainment to you.
that you think this could make you happier about you.

but more often that not, i know how i'd go back to helping you if you ask me to.
or when you need me.
i always will.

i don't think i'd have the heart to be like you ever.
and that, somehow, makes me feel glad because it means that i'm not like you.

keelyn

the reason is that there's no reason.

2011-11-25T21:16:00.000-08:00

would you still read this blog if you realized i was just exactly like you?

that i, too, refresh blogs daily to check whether my favorite blogger updated his/her blog.

that, i, too, wake up with unruly hair, and a vengeance to kill the person who created education.

that i, too, take 489 pictures to find 1 or 2 great pictures. which i usually then post on FB.

on a very lazy Saturday afternoon like this, listening to Micheal Buble (who is almost close to perfection! ) and typing this post out makes one very contemplative.

questions like what is my purpose on earth.
like if i have left 1 hour on earth what would i do.
like if we can make a wish on 11.11 and it'll come true, can we still make a wish on 1.11 and will it come true as well?
like what should i wear for the dinner gathering later on and do i have matching accessories or not.

hmmm.

The thing i realized is, love, like love for a mother to a child. or love, like a boy to a girl is just love.
you can't compare, and say that this is significantly more. or numerically less.
you can't do intense research and draw graphs.
you can read about it or watch movies with it as a theme. listen to music about love but then you can never assume nor decipher its depth.

because it's just so much so different yet very much the same.

simply, its when you are happy just with the company of the other person.
when suddenly, eating economy rice seems enough.

and that chuck palahniuk will always be right.

We are not special. We are not crap or trash, either. We just are. We just are, and what happens just happens.

love,
keelyn

seperti tiada peperiksaan dan lain lain.

2011-11-21T18:49:00.000-08:00

i want to hide my laptop in narnia until my midterms end.

and then maybe i wont online and you will not see this post.
but then again i think i'll find something else to do for example watching tv, eating, reading old issues of woman's weekly etc.

NATIVE COURTS.

i should be reading about that, yes.
but just for a while.

i'm feeling pretty sentimental-ish these days.
maybe because its nearing my time of the month.
maybe it's because its nearing december.

which reminds me, i was looking back at all my old posts and i had 7 posts last november, but only 4 this november. which means my life is becoming more drama-free...?
LOL.

or that i am getting lazier. either way.

I watched this movie the other day 那些年，我們一起追的女孩.
it was deep in a shallow way. shallow in a deep way.

do i even make sense?
and the lead girl, whoaa.

just look at her.
she totally created a double standard for asian girls.
how can one expect to look THIS GOOD just by sitting down and staring into space?
and she's 28 years old can you effing believe it.
TWENTY EIGHT.

when she looks not over 20. which i am at. =.=
but really, this movie (which was based on a real life story!) is worth watching.
and as you have guessed, i cried. yes.

i realised these days especially much so that i miss things i used to think was routine.
like how i miss tying up all my LONG LONG hair in a bun with a pen.
or how i miss taking pictures of random things.
or of myself in changing rooms.
old town-ing with sherlee.

and then i think alot about life as well.
like how we are all always thinking what ifs, and maybes simply because we think what we have is not what we deserve.
that we somehow, in some other twisted parallel planet deserve a better something.
a better boyfriend.
a better life.
a better figure.

i swear sometimes my brain a big procrastinator.
all these when i should be studying?

*insert dramatic Marilyn Monroe sigh* Oh No!

okay, gotta go study now byes!

ps : i solemnly swear to (not to contemplate chopping of my hair everytime i go to the hardresser's) and keep my hair long until i look like pontianak harum sundal malam 3. or rapunzel.

love,
keelyn

unrelevant.

2011-11-17T07:41:00.000-08:00

good news is, i finished one mid terms.
bad news is, i have 3 more midterms to go.

which means i am free, till like tomorrow.
then i have to study for my next mid term scheduled next week.

le sigh.

busy girl is busy. =(

but oh wellll, beats having no breaks at all.
i think i get stressed out pretty fast. like especially nearing THE DAY (of exams usually).
i think its the ill consequence of doing last minute studying.
NOT GOOD.

in between all the interesting (and maybe not so interesting) things that is happening in my life, i am doing a pretty okay job eating and sleeping properly, exercising quite regularly and updating this blog more frequently.
which is honestly quite a good thing on my part, so yay me.

as you might have realised, my brain power ceases to function properly now and i don't really understand 99/100 % of the things i am typing now.
i probably won't even spell check this later on.

okay i am sleeepy so i am going to bed because i can.
goodnight!

love,
keelyn <3

you grew up.

2011-11-13T20:45:00.000-08:00

and your wishes changed.

you no longer want new Barbie dolls.
or a new set of water colours.

you want new clothes.
as much as you see in Forever 21.

you want riches.
you want things you see on Rich and Fabulous.

no longer is the days when a Nokia 3310 and playing snakes on it is exciting.
now you want an iPhone, with a million games you probably never touched.

you want brands which names you probably can't pronounce.
like a louis vuitton neverfull, the v silent.

you grew up,
and the old you kind of misses you.

keelyn

vanity.

2011-11-10T02:16:00.000-08:00

i think tattoos on the back (somewhere to the far left or far right) of the shoulders is super hot.

^ like this, omg sexy can. WANTS!

but sadly, i don.t think i am emotionally or physically or mentally prepared for something so permanent YET lahh, so i got something else!
i went to pierce my ears, right at the tip of the ear lobes, just like i like 'em =)

feel so glamorous now lol wtf.

if you know me, you'd know my fetish for rings.
those chnky ones, especially.
seriously, i ALWAYSSSS stop at those small booths at malls just to try on 45634875623 rings and it so happens that Rosh is always there as well, and duhh 2 girls the convo always goes something like ;

me: omg this one sooo pretty. should i buy?
rosh : ehh gorgeous lah that one. i love this one as wll.
me: wanna buy not?
rosh: come lah we buy. so pretty kan. worth it.

FAIL.
but its really pretty! what do you want me to do, LE SIGH.
T.T

ooh on the OTHER hand, i have a new resolution (which hopefully lasts!)
I WANT TO GET MORE COLORED CLOTHING.

red, orange YELLOW, cobalt bue, PINK, green etc etc.
i've been told i wear BLACK,WHTE,GREY too often for my own good =(

ok gonna go be woman-ly and girly and do bimbo stuff like tumblr-ing and online shopping now, BUHYE.
=P

LOVE,
keelyn

in time.

2011-10-30T06:31:00.000-07:00

watched that yesterday.
one word, AWESOME. =)

like its better than i expected cause (beware, spoiler) it was deep and meaningful and had Justin Timberlake and his hot body and its just cool to be able to age till 25 and never grow old afterwards.

and also watched friends with benefit the other day.

cliche, but still quite very good. and Justin Timberlake again. YUMM.
and mila kunis is SOOOO pretty! and her body ._.

ooh and sisterhood of the traveling pants.

CRIED MY FREAKING EYES OUT.
literally.
at one point i was crying and trying to breathe at the same time that i suffocated wtf. true story.

yes, as you can see my social life is kind of very nonexistent right now.

BUT.
that is not true.
kind of.
i hope.

i went to Rosh's for deepavali the other day.
and everyone cam as well which made it so much awesome-r cause it has been long since all of us like met up TOGETHER, and the food is good as well. happy girl is happy.

PS: I TYPED THIS POST LIKE LAST LAST WEEK AND I CAN'T POST IT BECAUSE OF MY OH SO AHMAZEENG INTERNET ACCESS AT HOME SOOOO OKTHATSALLTHXBAI.

love,
keelyn

you should try out acting.

2011-10-20T20:01:00.000-07:00

with talents like yours, and your multiple faces, you'd be gold.

you know, it hurts more because you exceeded my expectations.
like this shit coming from you?

well i didn't see that coming.

you know, we went through so much together and suddenly it just felt like is this all a facade all this while?
well what i really want to say is THANK YOU.

sincerely.

you make me realize that i shouldn't trust so easily and well yes, i hope you're happy with all the shit that you tried to do.
but please remember, quoting lady gaga, karma's a bitch and she has everyone's addresses and a motherfucking stamp.

good luck you.

keelyn

maybe its supposed to be this simple.

2011-10-17T03:50:00.000-07:00

no A, B, C or D's, just yes or no.

maybe we're supposed to go through a path with certain amount of danger and obstacles, to look back someday and think 'wow not bad, i'm actually kind of very cool to be able to do that! '

maybe life is only as complicating as we make it to be, and we can choose to live however simple (or complicated) we want to.

maybe all this will lead to something bad and depressing.
but then again...

maybe not.

it's amazing how something simple like eating the food you crave for, or talking to someone who you care about can change a mehh day to an amazing day.

well, i hope these good things stay.

=)

love,
keelyn

well that's ouch.

2011-10-17T00:42:00.000-07:00

honestly, i'm just trying not to care anymore.

like having sex. but better;

2011-10-13T00:37:00.000-07:00

i meant my holidays.

i realised that Penang, Alor Setar and Hat Yai (yes, again) with different people brings different kind of fun. (both still VERY FUN nonetheless =D )

the food hunting. the eating. the cannot finish the food get. the scolding because cannot finish the food. the wrong roads taken because of faulty (or lack of) gps. the eating AGAIN. and AGAIN. and AGAIN. the walking. the arguing. the look-seeing. the laughing. the talking. the driving. all lah ok.

and now i just woke up from my nap after arriving in malacca at 6 something am, received a message from the best friend to pack my things again as we are going kayelle tomorrow.

and then gentings on saturday and sunday.

BUSY MUCH?
yes.

but oh well, at least i am not wasting my holidays away. =D

love,
keelyn

i am bored.

2011-10-05T01:00:00.001-07:00

and therefore, i am browsing through pictures of penguins.
i'd want a wedding invitation card like this, dropdeadcuteness <3 BUT. not chio la, so when give people they'll be like éhh? wtf is this." maybe when my kid turns 1 la, then i'd give out invitation party cards to his other 1 year old friends with penguin pictures in front.

LOL i think ahead of myself too much, i know.

on days when i am not doing that, i reblog pictures on tumblr.

damn fun can, scroll, scroll more, click reblog, scroll summore, reblog, open new tab, scroll, reblog.

OK SOUNDS LAME WTF BUT I ASSURE YOU ITS NOT.

and you learn so much things from tumblr.

like new music!
your astrology (which is so true btw!)

speaking of astrology, i've been googling and reading alot on astrology.

i want to get in touch with my inner psychic-ness.
YES I BELIEVE I AM PART PSYCHIC.
no joke. i have proofs which cannot be typed and noted eternally in the cyber world but if you ask me you'd know why!

...

ok i know you are laughing at me in that one dark corner there now.

bye.

keelyn <3

what i really want to say is,

2011-10-03T18:20:00.000-07:00

i was very busy this past few months.
exams, studying for exams, and bitching about having to study for exams took away MOST of my time.

but all is well and exams are over and done with! (FINALLY, yessss! )

=D

i solemnly swear that i will start updating likeaboss now.

love,

keelyn <3

sawadeekap.

2011-09-05T03:27:00.000-07:00

is how you say hello in Thai.

i suppose if you have been stalking me on FB you'd have known that i went AS-Thailand and came back.

i didn't ;

1. met a convincing tranny.
2. ate tomyam
3. buy my ' I LOVE THAILAND ' tshirt.

HOWEVER. I did ;

1. walk all around Hat Yai without being raped/bombed/etc.
2. ate the spiciest, mouth numbing-est kuey tiao soup in my almost 20 years of living.
3. bought cheap beers.
4. bargain in hokkien.
5. had a great time with people i love.

which in my opinion beats all the things i didn't do.
=D

anyways,

i'd go on and on about my holidays, and the adventures i had like alice in wonderland, but i do not want to bore you with stories of how i repeatedly forget the currency exchange rate of msia-thailand thus handing out wrong amount of money each.freaking.time.wtf. and how i gave in (damn sad ok they all) to the beggars of thailand that i almost stayed in the country as a fellow beggar as well.

on another note,
i was reading readers digest that day on my trip to the paddy-land and i found an article very interesting.
its about a dad who knew he had cancer, and thus made 6 men (his friends) The Council of Dads. basically people who would replace him in teaching his daughters (both very young) different elements that he had.

i think its a really cool idea, and i'd do that too if i one day find out that i have a terminal illness (choi touchwood)

ooh and yes, do you know that as soon as you cross the border between Thailand and Malaysia you immediately have an extra hour?
they're apparently an hour earlier than us.

it's a thought that amazes me alot the whole time being there.
its like when i look at my watch, ooh 12 pm and then my friends will be like noooo its just 11 am and i'd be like ooohhhh yeah. 0.o

having a free hour is just so liberating.
makes you feel like you're free to linger longer than you should.
sleep longer than you should.
play more than you should.

on an unrelated note,

i find the picture above very true because i have been seeing alot of uncles-aunties with iPhones and iPads and whatnot these days.
i want to be an aunty with an Ipad 36 and iPhone 85 next time too.

lol ok bye.

keelyn

alot to rant about.

2011-08-20T23:06:00.000-07:00

i think being to free gives you alot to think about.
alot to think = a lot to compare = alot to rant.

rant # 1.
why i cannot lose more weight ar.
i knowla, i thinner (alot) compared to last time when i youngla. that is my zaman kegelapan weh.
but still.
i damn stress can, summore you know right, we live in msia, its like a sibeh asian society, you abit fat people all like 'wahhh, stop eating so much.'but then at night your friends will say 'eh come lets go mamak.'
MAMAK.
wahlao.
u noe ar, according to google, one teh tarik already 97.7 calories.
thats 10 minutes on treadmill ok.
le sigh.

i don't want (and never will ) revert back to my zaman kegelapan la, i know but still.
why i cannot lose more weight lehhhhhh! emo can.
i got c la, all those people who starve themselves and then they lose weight and then they look chio, which impress me la.
but when i try to do, sibeh fail can.

and it doesn't help that EVERYONE around me appreciates and loves food.
i also lie foodlah, so i guess what i can do is just cut down my portions lo. but honestly because i memang easy sien with things easily, i also eat quite little of every food la, but the problem is you know what anot?
i feel like eating alot of different types of food in small portions which = eating alot also.

damn.

^ i just want to be chio like her, God. T.T

rant # 2.
i don't know whats wrong with me.
i blame my numerology because i am number 7, which means that i am the deep, like to think alot, intellectual (ahem) kind.
then right, before i even venture on something, i will straight think of the pros and cons and mostly the cons.
i don't think its like i am pessimistic or anything la, because i am like happy, sunshine-y about most things la, but i always back out.

its like my fear for being attached to an idea too much, i think.
rosh and sher lee said that they would want a guy like me.
i think if a guy is really like me he'd be like a seriously messed up guy.

like the dudes that play indie music and smoke weed and skip classes and drive big bikes and think about stuff type.

sounds sexy right, when typed.
=.=

ok i am getting away from my topic (as per usual wtf) but! ok what i am saying is so i think of something/like someone/expect something, and then think of pros and cons, and decide to unlike/not do anything/forget about how i feel.

this cycle that has been going on for like damn long can.
and i am honestly, very, sibeh annoyed at me for always backing out like this.

rant # 3.
i get annoyed at bullshit easily. and i am too conscientious and honest for my own good.
you want to know why these 3 connect?
ok let me explain.
first of all, i am the kind of person that like even if you are my closest friend, or someone i find absolutely hot, or etc etc, if you act/do anything close to my definition of bullshit, wahlao, i can't tolerate lor.
and i will like tell you on the spot what/how your actions/words annoy me and then obviously, the other party, a human with feelings will not be happy la, çause honestly who will be happy right if people insult them.
but i cannot like don't tell and bottle them inside because then i'd feel fake and like blehhhh.

and then the down point is i have like high conscience, which means i feel bad afterwards and try to make up but then sometimes its too late, or like too hurtful or something what.

so i am TRYING to not feel so annoyed la, train a higher tolerance level.
its easier if i just find you hot, or you're a stranger, cause then i just detach my feelings for you and i'd be like ugh but if you're my friend then it just gets messy.

i want to be patient like buddha, but nirvana sounds so unreachable right now wtf. =.=

rant # 4
brings me to those that talk shit about people.
like those who judge, or criticize, or talk shit lah.

okay so i am guilty of that also la, like once a while i will be like 'yerr, she ok ny la, not that pretty la. ' or ' yerr, he hot meh?' but
1. i dont tell it in front of them and hurt them directly
2. i don't mean it, i usually feel bad afterwards.

i hate those that say it right to your face like your heart made of steel.
my stomach maybe la, refer rant # 1, but wahlao. people got feelings wan ok.
why you must purposely say things to annoy/ hurt another person leh?

first of all, dude.
you're not perfect either.
and if you do look perfect, your heart isn't which is a greater loss for whoever you're going to be with/ is with.
and also, you think people want to look that certain way wan meh?!
okla, i know i sound very emotional now but its because i have seen many girls hurt by things people say/ do that it annoys me how some ass out there who have no significance in our life can affect someone else that much.

LIKE IF YOU HAVE NOTHING GOOD TO TALK ABOUT, SHUT UP CAN.

PHEW.

feels so much better after typing this.
but rereading it again make me sound very vain, and feminist and unhappy.

i'm not, its just all these thoughts have been running around in my head that typing it out to be read in public feels good.
wtf i don't think i make sense.
ok till next time,

keelyn.

ps : i am going kayaking and go cart-ing later! hee. =D
BUT WEATHER DAMN HOT LA, CONFIRM SUNBURN.

when things gets confusing.

2011-08-20T19:41:00.000-07:00

its up to you to make it simple.

honestly,

2011-08-04T07:39:00.000-07:00

i think you're just here for the penguin gifs.

i mean, i think somewhere out there, people will be googling 'penguin gifs'.
i hope so, at least.
at least i won't feel like such a weirdo.

i have been tumblr-ing alot these days.
i mean, just scrolling and clicking the reblog button and refreshing and BAM.
you get your thoughts across.
technology really makes people lazier, i believe.

and also, tumblr is making me speak in basic english all over again. i lose my abilities to form proper english sentences besides words like dashboard, follow, refresh and reblog.

anyways, just so you know, i am updating my blog today because i am having a WONDERFUL day.
first of all, i am badass enough to skip my class! (m'sian studies only lah, but still.)
then, my mum decides to cook. homecooked food is love. <3
and then, i baked chocolate chip cookies which turned out all perfectly well (i'd prefer it crunchier lah, but the family likes it this way) , crunchy on the outside, crumbly inside.
and then i hear nice songs on the radio.
and last but not least, the best friend, anak enfys muthiah, dragged me out for dinner and walking-talking-shopping.

=)

BUT THEN. on the other hand, i feel emotions are very overrated sometimes.
like those people who post statuses about their emotions.
or the emoticons on which shows things like emo-ness, or happiness, or feel nothing-ness today (yes, wtf dumbass FEELING NOTHING IS NOT AN EMOTION SO STOP POSTING THINGS LIKE THAT CAN?)

wahlao.
go get an ad and like project your useless emotions on the billboard in melaka raya want anot?
ish.

speaking of which, my hair is in the awkward length where it is neither long nor short now.
so its like i want to tie also cannot, i want to leave it also funny.
amatlah susah menjadi seorang perempuan.

i want to have a kid of my own.
i want to be a mother.
for one day only lah.

like damn fun can, a kid run to you cal 'mumy, mummy' then you bring the fella go play, and cook for him/her and then put him/her to sleep.
but if too long, will be troublesome dlah.

rosh was telling me just just now, when we were gossiping about one of our friend.
'life's like that la. its not like you can change how you feel about someone if you want. feelings take a long time to build up so it takes a longer time to forget the feeling.'

aflah also told me something deep about love the other day.
i just can't remember right now because its 11 plus pm and i should be sleeping.

but i am just amazed how we grew from people who fight over the smallest things like A Cinderella Story (the Hillay Duff one) CD to the us now. all grown up and having deep dreams and ideals and thoughts about love.
amazing.

on an unrelevant but interesting note before i sign off, i met a woman who had around 64 plus jabs of collagen on her boobs today.
IT.WAS.HUGE.

maybe next time in the future,
hee.

keelyn <3

being busy

2011-07-27T07:06:00.000-07:00

means the only thing you want to do once you reached home is to sleep.

which means no online socializing.
no blog updating.
no tumblr reblogging.

basically no life whatsoever online lah.

but its ok. i am now online back again! (for now.) *insert smiley face*

ooh by the way! i watched Harry Potter.
it was good, but not great. but i like it, i feel like it ended the Harry Potter legacy rather well, in a serious-er than other installments manner. i cried, as expected. ooh but the whole time i was like "SNAPE! WHY YOU NO TELL LILY YOU LIKE HER? "

le sigh.

on another hand, when you are on your period, cravings are alot.
this time, i crave for waffles ALL. THE. TIME.
i even seriously consider buying a waffle machine.
i google-d and ebay-ed it, with all seriousness.

but nolah, i never buy.
point is, i must stop all this unnecessary cravings at 2 am in the morning.
fat can.

anyways, i have alot of things to say, on what i feel about important and non important things like politics, the weather, sex and love.
i also have things to update you about, like how 2 of the most important guys in my life came down to malacca, and what we did.
and on things like how i will be baking with rosh tomorrow.

but right now, my contracts tutorial is calling out for me, le sigh.

maybe next time.

sincerely,
keelyn.

looking back,

2011-07-01T20:20:00.001-07:00

i don't think i regret anything major in life.

i currently have 1017 photos in my phone.

its funny how the more technologically advanced things are, the harder it is for me to update pictures.
thus, most of the pictures you see now are of last year.
but then, you probably saw them on FB as well.

today is a saturday.
(no i am not going to go all rebecca black again)
her video got taken off of youtube though. sadddd. =(
ANYWAYS.
today is a saturday, one of those days where i don't need to wake up early, go to campus, rush to classes, stay back for meetings etc.

the nothing to do -ness is very uncomfortable.
i think i might need time getting used to this back again.

i realized listening to sad songs while you are not feeling happy is probably one of the stupidest things to do.
it just makes you feel so much more... depressed.

not good.
therefore, i am on a colbie caillat replay marathon now.

in between my free time, i've been reading an abundance of CLEO/Women's Weekly etc.
some useful information i got was that ;

1. apparently men gets more attached to emotions like sadness and love than women.

2. tying your hair all the time doesn't make your hair grow any faster.

3. the difference between wholemeal bread and white bread is only 11 calories.

4. a zebra is actually white with black stripes.

i'm sure there's more. i just don't remember it all right now.

rosh said i look sad these days.
sher lee, too.

truth be told, i think they're right.
it's those emotions that come to you once in a while and then you just suddenly feel like everything is going down and wrong and there's not much reason to be happy, really.

i'm sure this feeling will pass, like how it always will.
just maybe not now.

on a random note, i think making wishes at 11.11 works.
at least it does for me.
=)

oh, and my mother's dream when she was young was to be an air stewardess.
i didn't know until yesterday.
but she said she didn't try applying because she was wearing spectacles and back then (eye) laser was a procedure that throws you in Narnia and you may never return again.
you think i'm joking.
you should see my mother's face when she talks about laser.

talking about the weather is so late 2000's.
more often than not, my hello now is 'going to class? *insert smile here* '

on an unrelated topic, i think this song is sexy. and its still going to be my wedding song.

you know it too.

2011-06-28T20:33:00.000-07:00

that BM karangan that always begins with ' saya ialah sebuah basikal/buku/kereta/pensel mekanikal' etc etc.

i used to hate writing that type of essays.
makes me feel like i am in charge of the life of some thing. like i can make 'it' have a happy ending, and/or not.

and then whenever a plastic bottle falls down or i accidentally kicked a shoe or something i will be apologizing uncontrollably to them.
=.=

on a side note, i went jogging today with Regina after a long time.
we walked and talked and laughed more though.
but it was fun =)

you're an awesome friend, thank you sayang.

i actually have no concrete idea on what i should type about anymore.
ooh yes.
music.

1. Tyrone Wells - Running In Your Dreams

2. Joe Brooks- Superman

3. Tyrone Wells - Sea Breeze

4. Alarice- Sunday Afternoon

5. Jason Mraz feat Colbie Caillat - Lucky. (classic, that. =) )

ok going to run to campus now, bye.

keelyn

Part II Section 5

2011-06-25T21:39:00.000-07:00

of the Contracts Act 1950 deals with the revocation of an offer.

i like the word, revocation.
how it oh so nicely rolls from the tongue.
it just sounds so... final.

on days when i am not updating this blog, i am busy discovering the world.
kind of like dora the explorer.

things i realized was basically these :

1. i have very bad immune system. like its not even cute/funny/sympathetic anymore. my annoying ass flu/cough is still not going away even after 3 weeks plus.
ugh.

2. having PMS while you're sick makes you feel very ugly and is not good for the self esteem at all. basically you just feel like wearing baggy clothes, eat ice cream and hide from society all the time.

3. a smile is sometimes more than just a smile. it could brighten up someone's whole day. =)

4. i still haven't seen a penguin in real life. i think its official. penguin is my favorite animal. i saw a sugar glider though (go google it.)
it's my friend's. looks like the master sifu from kung fu panda.
but still. its not a penguin. *sadface*

5. a friend said that i am like dr.jekyll and mr.hyde. meaning i have a very split personality. i defend it by saying that i am just a very fickle person. and i have a wide interest in alot of things.

6. i should get back to my contracts tutorial. but i still don't know whether Eric's revocation of the proposal means that there is a valid contract between him and Faizal.

ok bye.

keelyn

ola~!

2011-06-11T21:37:00.000-07:00

how do you like my new template?

well i like it ALOT. its very refreshing, no?

=)

i am down with very bad flu+ coughing fits + fever these days.
unwell. =(

i guess its my fault also la, since i KNOW CLEARLY WELL that i get infected with people's diseases easily but i still share drinks with someone who has cough. ugh.
I CAN BE VERRRYYY SMART SOMETIMES I TELL YOU. =.=

my current biggest dilemma is whether or not to grow my hair long again. its growing but i don't know whether i should chop it off again or keep it long.
*le sigh*

on a brighter note, do you know that iTunes have radio? 0.o

open up your iTunes -> Radio -> Jazz and thats just pure <3 i swear.

keelyn.

do you know?

2011-06-07T10:20:00.000-07:00

# 1 : i haven't been to the seasides/anywhere near big bodies of water (swimming pools included) for a VERY long time.
i want to go to beaches! =(

# 2 : i like Lady Gaga. I think she's hot in a weird way. like she's pretty but there's something scary about it. and she says stuff that is meaningful in her interviews which proves that she is sexy, hot AND intelligent at the same time. my current favorite song from her is Boys Boys Boys =)

# 3 : i watched Kung Fu Panda 2 and i realized that baby pandas are super cute. and i would like to adopt 2 pandas so that i can call them SE SE and XY XY. (yes SE-XY) hehe.

# 4 : i've been told that i look/stare at people like a guy. meaning; i stare at people who attract my eyes in the most obvious way ever.

# 5 : i am a certified sleeper. i can sleep at ANYWHERE and EVERYWHERE with ease and comfort.
MCD, lecture halls, waiting benches, etc etc. you name it, i've (probably) slept on it. =.=

on a totally unrelevant note, i found out alot of love stories/scandals through an unofficial 'sharing/interviewing' session today, hee.
ooh and rosh if you're reading this, I LOVE YOU! <3

xoxo,
keelyn.

keelyn.

i wonder how super heroes do it.

2011-06-07T00:15:00.000-07:00

working in the morning and saving the world at night.

i go to campus in the morning and sleep at night and i still complain that i am tired.
@.@

on the other hand, we celebrated Kethes (one of my green group OC) birthday yesterday.
it was fun and funny (although we had to wait very long just to eat)and everyone really felt like a big family.
which was comforting. =)

i want to watch fireworks.

i realise also that every little thing can make you happy, if only you let it. which is what i (think) i am doing these days.
hehe.

okay going to go for class now, buhbye.

=),

keelyn

i was busy

2011-06-05T09:46:00.000-07:00

for the past 2 weeks.
4-5 hours of sleep daily and the burnt hole in my pocket to reload my phone credit and to buy fishermen's friends.

yes, i joined OC. (Orientation Committee, FYI )
it's like a group of people who organizes stuff for the new students in MMU and boy was it tiring like hell.
BUT.

it was a very very good experience and absolutely fun.

i learnt many new things such as how to smile to everyone and meet new people whose name i am sure I haven't remember yet.
learn to sleep in any and every pose and to control my expressions at all times due to the roaming cameras everywhere.

i was inactive online for the 2 weeks, and it was a good change.
to be active in real life as compared to just living online 24/7.
i have so much stories to share, and yet now this is all i can say.

stay tuned people. =)

love,

keelyn`

Mr. Ong Wei Jiun

2011-05-21T03:32:00.000-07:00

Well. this is awkward. i am at lost for words.

...

okay let me put in some pictures to describe you.

first and foremost, you most defining characteristic.

BUT.

when we're together its like this ;

although sometimes it more like this ;

(still remember you shout when refilling water and then walk into student centre like its not you? haha! )

And no matter how hard i try, I always get reminded of you when I listen to Lady Gaga. Imagining you doing something like this ;

and then sometimes i get annoyed at you and i swear to myself ;

but then when i see you again/ sms you/ talk to you, whatever works and you make me laugh all over again.

and sometimes when you try to make jokes that just will never work and i'm just sitting there like ;

and although we're not really the 'omg ONG WEI JIUN is my BESTEST GUY FRIEND EVAHHH!" on facebook/twitter/tumblr/friendster etc etc type of friends, i want you to know that you're still one of the best friends i've ever had ;

and thank you for staying loyal to my blog. you're one awesome shit of a friend and i have a feeling we'll stay this way for a long time.

and stay fabulous baby.

signing off,

keelyn. =)

HOLIDAYS ARE FINALLY HERE!

2011-05-21T03:09:00.000-07:00

you cannot imagine how happy i am once the last paper was collected. no JOKE. i was literally like THIS ;

NO MORE ALLAH.

NO MORE WORDS WHICH MEANING I CANNOT UNDERSTAND.

NO MORE STUDYING! (for a while. )

we so excited. gonna have a ball tonight! *yeah!*

okay the song is still quite very addictive.

ANYWAYS, on the way to my 9 am class today, i was involved in ANOTHER accident. (i know, this blog should be changed to Keelyn and her accidents WTF =.= )
BUT.
this time was a little different.
i swear i could almost die. the glass (at the driver's side) smashed into literally a million pieces and some even went into my scalp. scary shit. and there was an electricity pole so close to it too. it was raining heavily then and common knowledge would tell us that water and electricity aren't exactly the best of friends.
AND when i the car was skidding I kind of could feel like my life will end, right then and there you know?
like oh man this is it. this is how i'm going to die.

which isn't necessarily a bad thing because i always had the feeling like i would die in a car accident.
(choii touch wood!)

but it's true.

anyways, and then i come to my conclusion which is really, life is just too fucking short.
too fucking short enough to spend doing the things you love to worry about the things you hate. which was a big, much needed eye opener because i have been quite unhappy of late with some things which happen not to go my way.

so this blog post shall remind me, someday when i am 158 and still alive, that from this point on i will stop all the fucking cliche that comes with life. i will live my life like a bloody movie star. i will have so much fun that if someone smokes weed while having sex beside me i can smirk in that ass's face and say 'try doing that on a rollercoaster kiddo. ' and most of all, i would just... be happy.
i think that that's the least I can do for all the people who love me, and will love me, and for those who I love, and will love.

okay so thats all that i want to say for now.
ooh did I mention? I am happy! wheee. ok gotta run now bye.

keelyn.

ps: ong wei jiun, you much awaited post shall come. SOON.

hi there =)

2011-05-07T00:59:00.000-07:00

sorry for the long absence here.
alot happened.
shit, and some happy stuff in between.

but we're not going to delve into the bad ones because i am happy now.
mostly because of this video.

ANYWAYS.
i have exams in a week, which sucks ass because seriously, like seriously exams when my friends are all on a ONE FUCKEN MONTH BREAK?
like seriously MMU, are you fucken fucking me?
jeez.

ooh, by the way.
i think i knocked down a dog yesterday with my car.
the dog saw me coming and STILL ran towards me. like hello, i am driving a freaking moving car.
but still, i have a conscience so i spent one whole night partially awake trying not to think about the dog.
scary shit, THAT.
ooh and the repair costs about rm 2000. ouch.

on a final note, its Mother's Day tomorrow.
don't forget to wish the woman who raised and tolerated your ass all these years kay.
hee.

xoxo,
keelyn.

ROSHWINI ENFYS MUTHIAH;

2011-04-24T07:43:00.000-07:00

well, well.
what can i say?

YOU'RE A DIVA.
NO, LIKE SERIOUSLY. YOU ARE.
FROM YOUR OBSESSION FOR PERFUMES TO WEARING HEELS IN BROAD DAY LIGHT JUST FOR FUN.
FROM YOUR 'FUCK THE WORLD' OUTBURSTS TO YOUR SENSITIVITY FOR THE PEOPLE AROUND YOU.

ROSHWINI ENFYS MUTHIAH;

WAS THERE WITH ME AT ALL MY WORSTS, BE IT MENTALLY, EMOTIONALLY OR PHYSICALLY AND STILL REMINDS ME HOW BEAUTIFUL AND AMAZING I AM.
I SWEAR IF YOU'RE A GUY I WOULD MARRY YOU STRAIGHT AWAY.

ROSHWINI ENFYS MUTHIAH;

THE FIRST PERSON WHO TAUGHT ME THE PRACTICALS OF SEX (AHEMTEABAGAHEM).
YOU BROKE MY PURITY YOU BITCH.
LOL.

THE ONE WHO THINKS HOT HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH LOOKS OR THE PRESENCE/ABSENCE OF HAIR.
THE ONE WHO IS READS MILLS AND BOONS AND BELIEVES IN HOPELESS ROMANCE.
THE ONE WHO DESERVES THE BEST MAN OUT THERE.

ROSHWINI ENFYS MUTHIAH;

THOUGH OUR BALI TRIP WILL NOT SUCEED (THIS TIME), THERE WILL BE MORE CHANCES IN THE FUTURE, BECAUSE YOU'RE STUCK WITH ME FOR LIFE!
HAH.

SEBAGAI KESIMPULAN ;
I could go on and on and include a million words, pictures and gifs but it would still not be able to justify the AWESOME (there, i used the word. ) role you played in my life.
SOOOOOO....

Just remember that you'll always be the black to my yellow, the Mac to my Donalds (though i hate that shit ugh.) and most of all, the auntie to my kids. mainly because we all know you'd literally be like (refer below) if i'm gone.

heh.

love you muchos hitam.
xoxo,

keelyn

PS: OOH AND. GOODLUCK FOR YOUR EXAMS! =)) AND I'LL JUST BE RGHT HERE WAITING FOR YOU SO LETS GO PARTAAAYYYYY WHEN YOU'RE BACK KAYS! =))

for those times

2011-04-21T01:34:00.000-07:00

when you are down, yet couldn't find a reason for it.
and then you start finding any small fault, any flaw to explain the emotional imbalance you're facing.
as for me, i blame my overly active online life.
i have a facebook, a tumblr AND a blog to run.

and then when those days come and i feel like shutting down whatever ties i have online to make myself more 'free-er', in every sense of the word.
i'm such an emotional wreck at times.

ANYWAYS. to avoid talking about things that bring me down, lets focus on the happier things in life.
i watched Limitless and Love and Other Drugs the other day.
It was great movies, both of them.
Limitless has a very refreshing like omg i didn't expect THAT! narration and ending while Love and Other Drugs has an awesome cast and a meaningful (albeit a bit predictable) storyline.

but both equally recommended. =)

i STILL want to watch Justin Bieber's Never Say Never on cinema (or maybe even in 3D), but everyone even the ticketlady says i should just probably just go get the cetak rompak version. *insert sadface*

oh yeah.
i like taking pictures of faces these days. peoples. smiles. frowns.
i start using back my (olderthanlife) film camera again and i am having fun making people laugh for me.
i find it interesting how some people just need one dumb joke to come out with that picture perfect infectious laughter while some need a few more monkey faces to do the same.

i believe that self confidence is sexy.
everyone should know their strengths and weaknesses and work on the good and bad stuff and just be proud of what and who they are.

i don't, however, think that too much self confidence is a good thing.
truth been told, i think its annoying.
people who flaunt or talk about themselves 24 out of 22 conversations?
well they're just plain pain in the asses.
like SHUT UP already ok.

anyways, i watch an episode of gossip girl the other day.
i think me and my friends (sec school/aimst/mmu) are kind of like the characters on gossip girl.
except maybe we don't try to sleep with each other so often.
oh, and we never have the "ómg i didn't buy that limited edition chanel dress, so what am i going to wear to tonight's party?!" dilemma. its more like the "omg that party has a theme? nahh i'm not going. no dressla." thing.

which, weirdly when typed out makes me feel like we're in fact casts of glee.

except that one tiny thing.

we don't break out singing at the every broken heart/ happy news etc etc.

keelyn.

things i want you to know.

2011-04-07T00:51:00.000-07:00

i use to slap myself for every curse word i say, true story.
but now i curse like no one's bloody business wtf.
bitch is a personal favorite, you see.

marriage.
of course i think about marriage.
being mrs.*whatever my future someone's surname will be", the romantic honeymoons (note: plural), the discussing of future kids name, the finding of houses together, the screaming at each other for small things like losing our kids etc etc.

i think i'll be a great wife =)

i think i WAS a brat.
in my younger days, probably.
i'd slam the doors and try to run away from home every fortnightly.

but being 20 (numerically not physically or anything, of course) kind of sheds that of you.
i think being bratty means having no care in the world about others feelings but yourself, and we lose the right to don't care as we grow older.

i don't really get the point of this picture. like if a hot guy sits there and talk to a parrot, i'd seriously be freaked out more than anything.

but, hey, that's just me.

i watched this video the other day.
scared the fuck out of me.
how can humans be so cruel towards animals like that?

i swear i'll be a vegetarian one of these days.

maybe tomorrow.

2011-04-04T04:26:00.000-07:00

I am sitting in my car facing the huge trackfield in MMU typing this as you read.
Do you know MMU's best view is here?
you probably don't.

I didn't too. (but I do now! *insert smiley emoticon*)
It's getting darker now, and my brother is still not out.
Birds are flying around in invisible number eights, and glee's 'don't stop believing' is playing on lite fm.

Okay that are just adjectives to describe how bored I am, actually.
Random fact #234: I don't like the word random. Like 3 out of 2 people have Facebook albums titled random. I think it's just a very overrated word.

Okay my brother is here!
Goodbye dear readers. Thank you for wasting 5 minutes of your life on this quite pointless but entertaining to type post.
:))

Keelyn

who says watching TV series is not beneficial?

2011-03-28T05:51:00.000-07:00

You ever look a picture of yourself, and see a stranger in the background?. It makes you wonder how many strangers have pictures of you. How many moments of other peoples life have we been in. Were we a part of someone's life when their dream came true or were we there when their dream died. Did we keep trying to get in? As if we were somehow destined to be there or did the shot take us by surprise. Just think, you could be a big part of someone elses life, and not even know it.

ONE TREE HILL

learnt that through one, heh.
*insert smartass smirk*

also, i do not know when i will ever start putting pictures of mine on my blog again.
i take pictures of things that interest/amuse and amaze me, and it just seems like a waste that i can't share it here. *sadface*

ahh well.

anyways, i played with a baby today. sher lee's baby cousin.
for a second i felt like having a kid on my own.
(a kid raising a kid, how funny ehh. ha-ha-ha.)

i mean, i am not the 'omg a baby! so cuteeee *rushes over to play with baby* 'kind of girl.
nope.
i am the 'omg can that kid stop wailing/crying/screaming wtf . '

ooh yes, i am going to hell.

but yes, point is, that kid was a good, smiley, quiet baby and i am happy with good, smiley, quiet babies.

so yes, i would like to give birth to a good, smiley, quiet kid.
i think its enough having one person in the family who will be loud, noisy and crying/complaining all the time (that being yours truly) thank you very much.

i found out something about someone (i kind of looked up to) recently.
apparently she's a totally different persona from who se appears to be on her blog.

it's heartbreaking, almost.
but then who can blame her.

all of us are equally as superficial as we appear to be.

we listen to bands whose name we can't pronounce, and watch mindfuck films we'll never truly understand.
complain about things that are really just a small pinch in the ass, write statuses that will gets more likes than what we really mean to say and we take 4562 pictures at pretty posh places, but never at the playground near your house, or the school library ; because it is not hot.

in the end, we create a perfect image on the online sources.
yes, we manage to get the girls envious, and the guys thinks we're the most happening thing since Chelsea beat Man U.

and then what?

you're just forced to continue this lifestyle, over and over, it's a cycle that never ends.

on a different spectrum, i was watching this yesterday and it was just wow.
it was tears and amazement the whole way.
tears at how she stays so strong (even with her husband's death and the rejection from the court for appeal of the case)
amazement at how she stays so strong (even with her husband's death and the rejection from the court for appeal of the case)

and even more so at the main character (who is based on the a real life character) who stays so optimistic and fearless as the case spans for 17 years plus.

i suddenly feel like i shouldn't complain so much about my life (or lack of it).

also, i was reading a deep, mindfuck book the other day and a thought suddenly struck me.
what if,
one day you woke up realizing that you no longer love your other half?

i'd pack and just run away, probably to Dubai or some European city.
being the coward that i am.

well this have been a really deep post, otherwise i suggest you ignore me.
i think the pressure of balancing between submitting 2342 assignments (which fall on the same dateline wtf) and having no internet at home is getting on to me.

-.-

till next time,
keelyn˜

"oh no, oh no, i'm late!i'm late! "

2011-03-21T03:30:00.000-07:00

i kind of understand how the rabbit in 'alice in wonderland' feels.

to put it in modern age tv terms, my life is a series of amazing race meets survivor.
-.-

i have a food fair to prepare for, assignmentssss to be done AND, i need to revise for my exams.
crazy much, but thank god its the last semester.

anyways, on a brighter note, I CUT MY HAIR.
seeing how 3 out of 4 of you are my university/past university/ high school friends, you'd probably see it on FB, in real life (lucky you! =) ) and etc.

but if you are a stalker, then you can very politely turn to the right where my facebook badge is.
everything becomes oh so convenient, ain't it?

as much as i would like to sound classy by saying that i am sipping a hot cup of *insert posh sounding coffee name* at a cafe looking at the rain dripping while typing this post out, truth is i can't lie that much.

okay so i can but i don't want to go to hell.
you know, this japanese earthquake and tsunami, the world is ending at 2012 thing is getting to me.

i'm beginning to really think that it is true and damn its scaring the hell out of me.
as you all know, i am not the nicest person in town.
well, being a little better than ong wei jiun doesn't really count.

anyways, as i was saying, i am currently in my mother's office, typing this post with hae ko smelling fingers and an exhausted heart, mind and soul.

it is raining heavily now which makes it all better because i can't go get my car and i am one hour due to rushing back to adrian's house to produce rojak for the people of japan you see.

God Bless Them.

anyways, i read an article that day an apparently, men gets provoked by smells.
like for example, there's this girl in UK, and she works at a meat shop so everyday afterwork, she'll go to a bar for some alcohol.
and! the most ah-ma-zing part is this, everyday there'll be DIFFERENT guys buying her drinks, flirting with her, etc etc

so apparently, the smell of meat seduces men.

well i don't know if its true but what i'm sure of is the smell of rojak apparently seduces flys.
i swear the flies think i am one big fly reproducing machine.
they just come to my ear and do the fly mating dance bzz bzz bzz wtf.

oh yeah.
bersempena my 2012 is coming i shall be holy event, i decided to change my habit of calling everyone bitch.
you know,truth is, i didn't even realize until SOMEBODY pointed it out.
partypooper, blehh. -.-

so i am changing all badwords to haeko instead.

no, think about it.

Scenario 1
A: hey you're ugly.
B: HAEKO you man.

Scenario 2
A: Ehh why you always call people bitch wan?
B: Oh shut up haeko!

its catchy.
like the song 'like a g6'.

i don't know why i am so creative either.

i had a pretty bad week last week and its fascinating how i can think so negatively about someone.
and i tried avboiding facebook later, just to push me back out of these ideas and thoughts but i realised i couldn't even undo it for a week anymore.

4 days and i am logging back into the FB world.
crazy, isn't it.

on a totally random note, i had a weird dream the other night after watching 'ninja assasin'.

i dreamt that i was in some kind of 'puak' and they made me kepit a pillow and dive to the middle of the sea holding a string end to end with the man of keemei's dreams.

i blame the physical hygiene of my legs before sleeping for a 0.o dream.

rereading this again makes me feel so malaysian.
its such a malay-english-hokkien post, ain't it?
*insert smiley face*

keelyn~

"You believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself." - Marilyn Monroe

2011-03-07T05:26:00.000-08:00

this is my 5th attempt to blog.
if i hadn't shown any effort for the past x number of months, this annoying, hair pulling trials to blog now (yet failing each time) is being a pain in the ass enough.

well first off, i hope you kids aren't having a too eventful life like mine.
in between assignments which i have yet to do, classes from the early of the morning to late at night and watching gossip girl, i have almost close to no time to blog.

i know, i know, this is not a good reason. but still.
try to appreciate that i am still trying to give an excuse, ehh? =)

i have alot of things in my mind as I fought against my internet access and connection speed to type this post down. Yet, as i am sitting here typing right now,everything i have thought of or wanted to tell/brag/ drone on about, kind of vanishes.

my memory, i know.
-.-

speaking of which, isn't it weird how tumblr seems to be okay despite the bad connection but blogspot not so much?
so blog-ist!

well today in english our lecturer was asking us to give our thoughts on life and love.
someone said life was like a volcano, because it can be calm at times and yet some days it just erupts like your nose on flu.
another one said love was like a ride in the bus, i didn't listen as to why but i think its probably because you never get that bloody seat when you need it.

being almost 20 (in december '11 ,baby!), i still cannot give a true definition as to what life and love is all about without saying things that i read or heard somewhere before.

shameful, i know.

but then i watched this the other day and there's a line i remembered, something about letting things go and we don't have to rush because sometimes we learn even more when things are going slower. we see more things, and we'll be better than those who rush by so quickly.

yes, it was something like that.

i don't know why i am so philosophical right now either.

on the other hand, i read the original little mermaid story quite some time back when i was free-er.
i knew of the original version, rosh told me before.

and i always thought she was stupid to give up everything she was and everything she could have been for a guy she just met for once.
but when i read the story, i couldn't help it.
i cried.

maybe its the author's way of writing it, maybe because of the underlying theme of pure love.
maybe it was just my hormones.
but cried i did, and all i can think of was 'damn you, prince! how could you chose the holy girl from some conventry over a girl who gave up her everything for you?!'

and by the way, i am sorry these are all borrowed pictures, i have about two million and three hundred pictures to upload but i just can't find the patience or time or proper internet connection to do so.
so sadly, this is all that'll have to do for now.

ah! and if you've seen my facebook status, you would've realised my deep desire to learn guitar.
my sole reason for this is youtube.
after spending days and nights researching and watching and liking about close to 200 videos of acoustic music, i can say that girls with guitars are absolutely hot.
they just look so... carefree.

so i might try out for my hidden musical talents once again.
though i think my ex guitar instructor would probably not accept me ever again.

apparently according to him, i should just stick with hobbies like studying and reading and sewing.
i think me not being able to play the happy birthday song after 5-6 weeks of guitar lessons have something to do with that.

well, well.

till my next post,
loves xoxo from me.

keelyn

well isn't it cute.

2011-02-19T23:11:00.000-08:00

in between wanting to watch Black Swan and having watched Shaolin, many things have occurred.

don't worry though, i haven't done anything worth posting 200 self shots of me on FB like my new nose job or something equally as dramatic yet.

well for starters i went to Muar twice.
that, and i feel like i know it very well already.
just like a true Muar-ian.

ooh and my hello now is 'do you know that i walked barefoot from cheng to jonker walks?'
i say that to everyone i come across, so please hesitate when you decide to come and speak with me.
i am a true psychopath at heart.

well, to put the experience into words, it was filled with broken coconuts, bruised feet and a strong stench of sweat. or something dead. maybe both.
you think i'm joking.

but all in all, it was one of the most funnest thing i've ever tried to do and succeeded and thus it will be a story to pass on to great grandchildren to come.

and to add to the experience, i learned things i bet you'll never know.
like for example, do you know that coconut water is considered water in its purest form because it is untouched?

ooh and also, do you know that jalan ong kim wee has the rockiest roads?

life lessons, that.

keelyn fact #248.

i bring my camera out all the time now.
partly because i want to take loadsa good pictures to blog about.
mainly because i am to lazy to take the camera out of my bag when i come home each day.

on the other hand, as you know, my uncle (mother's brother) stays over my house every year during the chinese new years.
you didn't know?
well now you do.
anyways, so he is a HUGE Westlife fan.
which is a good thing right? because I love Westlife as well.

except he plays their songs at ungodly hours.

so now, i hear bop bop baby each morning when i wake up.

keelyn.

to you.

2011-02-10T23:07:00.000-08:00

I am writing. I’m writing because I do this when I don’t know what else to do with myself. I’m writing so I don’t cry. My hands need to do things and my brain needs to put words out. So I’m writing.

source: leucocyte, tumblr.

i know how bad it is. i know every beginning and the smeared ending.
i hear our arguments, i hear it clear and loud.
its like the sound of the fire drill in the middle of a dead night.
alarming, unexpected and heartbreaking.

i do things to annoy you, over and over again.
i hope one day you'll realize that its because i need your approval and recognition.
i do things to annoy you, over and over again.
i hope one day you'll realize all these tears are not because of you, but they were for you.

i feel helpless, as we decide to launch a cold war.
i'm not young anymore, i keep thinking.
how long am i going to keep this up?
as childish as it seems, i do love you a lot.

we heave a sigh of relief as i made the first move and hugged you.
you familiar body, your warm smell of talcum,
every single time.

maybe this is the way i am.
maybe this is the way you are.
maybe we are two wrongs.
keemei always said i was a difficult daughter to raise.
maybe it is true.

and for all that, i am sorry.
i love you, still, just always.

keelyn.

through the looking glass;

2011-02-06T06:37:00.000-08:00

Alice and the Cat: Quotes: Alice in Wonderland

Alice: Would you tell me, please, which way I ought to go from here?
The Cat: That depends a good deal on where you want to get to.
Alice: I don't much care where.
The Cat: Then it doesn't much matter which way you go.
Alice continued; …so long as I get somewhere.
The Cat: Oh, you're sure to do that, if only you walk long enough.

will you believe me if i said i am an almost certified alcoholic now?
no?
i know, i don't believe that either. (at least i'm still in the process of finding out)

BUT

that does not mean i have any less fun at the 37676328747386 great parties and gatherings the whole CNY.
*wide grin*

trust me, i took 3473456485 pictures to post on here as well as FB to show the world how much fun i am having but then again, being the awesome person i am, i lost my laptop's charger. wth, yes.
thus no pics transfer = no pics.
blehh.

and do you know that the longest line on your palm signifies how long you're going to live?
lol, just joking.
there's something similar to that i heard but who knows..?
the truth is, the lines at the side of your little finger (if you look at it with your palm 90 degrees in a flat line) represents how many romantic attachments you will have.
start by reading from the bottom on the way up.

i suppose my readers statistic will increase by 0.03% after this post.
after all, people love to try to figure out their lives more than really living it.

me included.

Ooh, by the way, did i mention? i ate fondant icing on shays birthday cake. The cake was beyond words (wait for it) AWESOME but the icing honestly tastes really just like a overly sweet chewing gum to me.

i realized that in a lot of ways life is like fondant icing.
sticky at times. chewy and annoying at some.
yet overall its sweet and leaves a great aftertaste.

i'm so good at making things up along the way you know? *winks*

on the other hand, do you know that a regular chinese meal has 8 or 9 courses?
americans regularly have about 5 maximum.
italians about 6 while koreans have about 4.

isn't it amazing how kiasu we chinese are?
its like we need to have the most in everything.

just look at the most populated country.
-.-

ooh hey! have you heard about tumblr?

its the best hang out spot for lazy ass bloggers like me.
i mean all i need to do is click reblog!
as much as i hate to admit it, i MIGHT switch to there for real.

we'll see.
=)

till then,
stay alive.

keelyn.

my theory is,

2011-02-02T06:12:00.000-08:00

chinese new year is basically a facade for people to play overbearingly loud chinese songs and invite overbearingly loud chinese relatives.

i don't know if its just me but there's something in the chinese new year songs that instantly put me in a aww-not-this-again mood.
maybe its the repetitious lyrics on money.

you see, chinese people, as much as i am proud to be one, is one of the greatest (and greediest) business people of all time.
money, gold and happiness comes together like cadbury and the colour purple to us.

i can assure you, 4 out of 5 chinese new year songs are singing about;

a) wealth
b) the god of wealth
c)for the blessing of great wealth.

-.-

and then of course, there is the nosy relatives.
you know them.
those aunties and uncles that is still living in Century 190 BC, China.

if you noticed, i tried to artistically describe old fashioned, but you see my english vocabulary is failing me.
blehh.

anyways, where was i?
yes, nosy relatives.
annoying people, them.

but don't get me wrong, i actually like chinese new year alot.
like for example, there's always the no cleaning for a few days rule.
and the crazy amount of cookies/mandarin oranges and box drinks, usually drinho.
the reds and bright pink laces with black see through leggings people fancy that amuses me to no end.
and of course, how can i forget?

the reunion dinner when the whole family sit together in front of food enough to feed a bunch of hungry african kids for a week.

life's good, LG.
=)

ps: this kid reminds me alot of justin bieber. i really begin to think i am a pedophile.

pps: Have A Happy Chinese New Year! =)

keelyn

sagittarius(es)

2011-01-25T04:36:00.000-08:00

supposedly, are one of the more honest, straight forward zodiacs.
i would like to believe it to be true.
in fact i would like to believe in all the other sagittarius traits; positive, cheerful, sunshine-like, etc etc.

yes, the lack of exams gave me alot of free times on my hands, thus if you have noticed, i spent those extra times googling useful things like 'how to throw a punch like a man' and 'sagittarius zodiac personality'.

of all the traits there is on sagittarius, what i felt contradict most personally with who i am was honest.
in which by honesty, i do not mean telling the world how i feel about this or that, and the things that are happening in my life.
because if the mentioned above is honesty, i think i do quite a darn well job being honest on my blog.

honesty means things like do you know that i (think and should most probably be real) have a fear for commitment?
i realized, that the reason i broke up with him was not because we wasn't suitable, which i used to think was the reason, but in fact, was because i was afraid.
afraid of falling in like.
afraid that i'll be the first one getting dumped.
and so i did it first. twice.

on the topic of being honest, do you know that a honest person has a lifespan of about 10 years lesser than a liar?
some of you (the brighter ones) might have realized that i made that up.
but its true.
liars get what they want, fast.
aladdin lied (at first) and he got princess jasmine.
the beast (kind of) lied and he got beauty.
mulan lied and got the warrior prince guy.

but i shall not lie on this post.
i used to have this certain someone which i felt was far superior than everyone else.
she was like this Queen, and exudes this certain sort of appeal, as much as i detest myself to admitting it.
i realized why though, now, being smarter and more technology savvier.
its because she has a passion for living.
she gives no damn about the people who come and go in her life, she just lives it as she pleases.
something that, for a long time, i couldn't bring myself to do, nor reason about.

there's always this layers of secrets to humans, and to why i am typing this post now at 12 am for you to feast your eyes on is still a mystery to me.
all i know is i have peeled this layer down, and you probably won't look at me the same again.
and i should probably stop eating too many cookies late at night.

<3,
keelyn

there's something in the coffee

2011-01-23T21:44:00.000-08:00

that makes me feel like writing something today.
hopefully no one is affected with my exams as much as I am.
no one apparently,
except ong wei jiun.

i honestly should buy him meals for his love for this blog.
mealS. plural.

now now, what should i write about first?
in fact, during my exam week, i had close to three hundred and forty two thousand ideas to blog about.
and yet now, othing particularly memorable comes to mind.
its always like this though, no?
as humans, we always want something else when we can't have it.
blehh.

i want to be a Venusian.

let's start with the basics.
exams are over, and i lost 43 years of my youth along with it.
i swear drinking coffee is not even useful anymore blehh.
but you know what works?
coffee plus chocolate.

disgusting as that sounds, it helped me through ACCOUNTINGS, which hopefully, i will not deal with anymore in my life.

ooh did you know you can know when you will die via Facebook?
technology is amazing, isn't it.
saves us all the trouble of going to the oh-so-wise fortuneteller that lives on top of the mountain.
pfft.

in between meeting ms.enfys and attending the 2010 LEO Concert (which didn't help in making me feel any younger -.- ) , talking on the phone with aforementioned mr. ong wei jiun and chatting till the early morning on FB with mr.leow eu shane, i realised so many things to be grateful for.

and i shall write it all down in case i forget one day.

1. all the great friends i have.
2. laughter and happiness.
3. coffeebean's and cheesecakes.

and now here's a picture of me looking extremely happy.

till the next post,
keelyn <3

ps: THIS shall be my wedding song.

this picture

2011-01-15T08:27:00.000-08:00

made me laugh for a few minutes straight.

Before you complain about this picless post,

2011-01-14T07:21:00.000-08:00

I just want to say that I am blogging from my phone.
That really limits alot of things that i can or cannot do, you see.

Anyways, I am sorry for the quietness around here.
I am busy busy busy these days.
Studying and trying to study and getting annoyed about the studying left is taking up all my time.

But like Harry Potter, I promise to be back.

Until then, stay tuned.
Heehee.

Ps: do you know that there are 10 barriers to effective listening? @.@

Keelyn~

i is very like chinese music.

2011-01-07T10:55:00.000-08:00

you know the lil hype i built up on wanting to watch this?

i just wanted to say that it totally rocked.
yes people, i LOVED it.

i do not know why people find it boring, or that it sucked because personally, i think it's one of the best films of 2010.

i think the producers of the movie should pay me commission.
i logged into my blog at 3 in the morning to clarify this, wth.
i am such a great human being.

*smiles*

ps: i need a vacation.
a long, long, happy, one.
ones where i can not think about the federal courts or any courts for that matter.
yes, i need a vacation.

pps: what does it mean when your left eye keeps twitching?

keelyn.

the smell of 3 am.

2011-01-04T11:04:00.000-08:00

if you want to,
i could save you, i could take you away from here.
so lonely inside, so busy out there,
and all you wanted was somebody who cares.

michelle branch
all you wanted.

hi there.
i am sorry for the lack of life here.

you see, while being absent, i was actually busy growing a beard so that i look like albus dumbledore.

i would say i am a little almost there, with my daily diet of bad sleeping habits and unusual bladder cycle.

ooh, have i mentioned? i am also having my accounting quiz tomorrow. oh wait, its today.
and i still do not fully understand realisation accounts.

you see, this is where the beard comes useful.
i want to hide my entire textbook inside it.

i hope you are laughing in front of your computer screen now.
at least i'll die knowing i am at least entertaining to someone,somewhere out there.

i miss my untainted, un-dyed hair alot.

it makes me look pure. and innocent.

speaking of hair, i think my hair is thinning down faster than the rate of birth in China.
the only hair i'd ever have left in the 2 weeks to come would probably be my beard.

yes, there she goes again with the beard joke.

its getting boring?
i see.

or do you want to hear the realisation account joke instead?
no?
yeah, i thought as much too.

will keep you updated about the beard,
keelyn

and i was like baby baby baby ooh.

2010-12-27T10:01:00.000-08:00

honestly, i do not know what justin bieber have to do with this post.
but to come and think of it, i do not know why i am here typing this when i have 7324732423 of my homework/assignments/studying to do either.

*shrugs*

2010 is ending in 4 days but fret not, then comes 2011.
december is a very mind provoking,melancholy bringing month, no?
i feel like having hot chocolate and sappy dramas at 2am, so i'll take it as a yes.

ooh by the way, i watched a wolf's temptation and the breakfast club yesterday.

to say they were good movies would've been straight out lies.
they were more than good.
like if good was receiving gifts for christmas, these were like receiving santa's gift bag.

you think i'm joking.
but i'm not.

wait where was i again?

thank god i did not choose to be a journalism major.
i can already imagine it.

'and so the bus crashed into the car and ooh by the way did you read the latest gossip? kim kardashian had her boobs done. yes, again wth. ooh yeah, oops sorry, so they crashed and 23 people died. amen.'

not that impressive, ehh.

but as i was saying, its new year in 4 days.
my exams in less than one month but not sure how many days because the counting scares me.

what i really want to say is, i made new year resolutions.

like how i shall stop saying bitch. or asshole. or fuck you. or any other words which appears so conveniently in my vocabulary whenever i meet people that annoy me.

and how i would stop shoving chocolates into my mouth with the total acceptance by my heart, mind and soul.

and lets not forget how i shall be a good daughter and sister to my beloved family.

afterall, 2011 will be a brand new year, where new hopes and dreams can sprout like a fungi on a stale 3 day old gardenia bread.

just saying.
heehee.

keelyn

well this is amusing.

2010-12-25T06:49:00.000-08:00

in between useless advertisements on the radio and a few happy Christmas tunes, we realize its the time of the year again.

isn't it cute how everyone becomes so happy on christmas?
malays, chinese, indians, you name it.

one malaysia much, ehh? =))

so what did i do for christmas?
let's see.

- ate cake.

- jonker walk-ed.
(ps: please do not go there for xmas countdown celebrations. its so not happening wth)

- decided in the 11th hour to change location to Portuguese Settlement. (literally eleventh hour. it was 11pm then -.-)

-rush-ed (despite the heavy traffic) to Portuguese Settlement.

- met rude drivers. met sweet ones. laughed ass off with the sadistic thought of counting down to Christmas in the car.)

-gave up. parked at a cemetery and decided to run to Portuguese Settlement.

-reached on time. =)

-fireworks, sweaty happy people and loads of snow suds.

i hope everyone had an enjoyable christmas too.

merry christmas!

=)

keelyn

i am not emotional,

2010-12-23T09:08:00.000-08:00

i just happen to like crying in the cinema halfway during narnia.

honestly typing, i do miss updating.
i miss this place.
but i can't because i have to know catch up the 348 assignments and quizzes and stuff to study for that i procrastinated 349 times.

but be good, dear readers.
be goo, keep calm, and stay with me.

i'll be back, soon (hopefully.)

so don't you dare go to that glitzy blog okay.
i'll be watching you. *deep eye stare*

ps: its going to be christmas in a day's time ~! =))

have you seen the new Facebook?

2010-12-11T23:28:00.000-08:00

you probably did.
its like he creators suddenly thought, 'hey well now that they are used to us, let's do some new shit to make us seem refreshing and innovative and ooh while we're at that, let's make their lives a living hell!'

=)

wheee.

NO.
not whee.
not =)

>.<

and trust me this is how polite i am online because its actually really more like .i.

anyways, moving on, i went to KL.
i think i've mentioned it before?
okay if i didn't i am now! =)
so yeah i went KL.

with a bunch of the craziest people I know and lets just say i never felt more overwalked as I did.

but totally in a good way.
shopped, did girly things,ate, talked, gossiped, shopped more, it was a full blast girly experience.

i don't know why i can't type in detail about things i do or places i've been to on blogs.
unlike 4375634875298 other popular bloggers.
i guess that's a reason why this blog still maintains its average rate of 0.04 readers.

*runs to a corner and cries*

but ooh have you ever sat on a LRT after office hours?
boy let me tell you its an eye opening experience.
its like all the assholes in KL meet up in the LRT after office to let out their daily dose of frustration on other people.

eye opening, ear popping, tongue rolling indeed.

you should try it someday. *winks*

but on the bright side, i went to somewhere to eat with my family today and guess what?!
that woman was talking to my mum and i was listening to my ipod and suddenly she's like 'woah all your daughters very pretty ar. who's the eldest ar? ehh wait, let me guess.'

OBVIOUSLY with my now dyed hair i know she would say me but heehee surprise surprise, she pointed to keemei (my younger sister). and we're like 'ehh?' and she's like 'ooh, no ar? or is it *points to keemi* (my ANOTHER sister, they're twins by 7 minutes)

ahmazeeng or what.

oh well, what can i do with my incredibly youthful babyface looks eh?
LOL.

quoting maybelline, i guess some's just born with it. *insert hair flip*

ps: hair curlers are super fun.

till the next update,
keelyn

Of estrogens and progesterones.

2010-12-04T23:11:00.000-08:00

i hate the hormones that make me so female sometimes.

and by sometimes, i mean everytime i oh-so-easily develops a 3 second crush over a new hot guy.
or how i will be mega excited over a shopping trip yet to come.

speaking of dreams.
i had a weird one yesterday as an aftermath of too much rain water and chocolate icecream in the middle of the night.

i dreamt that i was going to russia ad the worst part?
i haven't pack.
no luggage, no clothes, no nothing.
my dream wasn't even trying to be kind to me.

(notice how my female hormones and vanity is still in full force even when i am sleeping?)

i think i've watched to many romantic dramas for my own good.
i've been thinking alot about people around me and their views on love. about my own views on love.
yes, dissecting all these thoughts when i have 6354376234 unsolved problems on my own, go figure.

by the way, have you watched social network?
heard its pretty damn good.
god knows i need to get away from the woman-y part of me.

get me some cigarettes and beer and i'm set to go, yo.

you don't get 500 million friends without making some enemies.
-the social network-

^ i am serious about watching this tan sher lee, and i'm bringing you whether you like it or not.

teehee,
keelyn

ps: if you realised, i so cleverly placed the pictures of the three hottest guys in keelyn-land right now.
yes, and its because i am talented like that.

you'd probably know this

2010-12-01T04:25:00.000-08:00

but can you believe it, its already december.
i can't.
it feels like this whole year (or most of it, excluding december) has been a whirlwind of ups and downs, smiles one second and tears the next.

i feel this need to type something today, because its december 1st.

the childish-er kid in me is saying '19 more days to your birthday baybehhhh! booyeahhh!

but the more mature deep thinker part of me is saying 'christmas.cold winds.everything that lights up prettily.'

its a win win situation, really. =)
either way, its something good.

i spent 4 hours in sher lee's economics lecture/tutorial today.
what can i say?
it is very amazing how some people grow up with dreams to be an economist.

it is ALL graphs i see 1/4 of the time.
but then my attention span is that of a goldfish, so i dare not say what other weird economic-ish related things happened the other 3/4 of the time.

ooh by the way, i think i deserve a huge pat on the back.

i can control the weather.

or if i can't at least i can foretell it.
yes, like the weatherman/woman we usually watch on TV2.

its super sunny from morning to afternoon, then it gets cloudy from mid afternoon and then it rains. (x7 days a week)
and there you have it, my week shortened.

on the other hand, did i mentioned?
i watched unstoppable.
i wanted to watch 'the social network' at first, (and as if Facebook didn't earn enough, they decided to make a movie about it wth -.- but i'll get to that someday else) but as luck would have it, unstoppable it is.

i like it.
its exciting, funny (at times), and sweet with a pretty face to drool at(Chris Pine).
kind of like a diabetic version of justin bieber.

but really, what i want to say is i have mid term exams on friday.
basic accounting for lawyers, yes i know, wth.

wish me luck, kays?

love,
keelyn

read my past blog posts today,

2010-11-27T23:43:00.000-08:00

and i realised,
after all this time...

keelyn.

flowers that regrow

2010-11-27T08:39:00.000-08:00

like fire and rain,
you can drive me insane
but i can't stay mad at you for anything

Joe Jonas & Demi Lovato
Wouldn't Change A Thing

why is it that when I am thiiiiisssss close to my midterms, 2834 new dramas HAVE to come to my knowledge?
okay, so my itching heart, mind and soul is to blame partly but still, DAMMNNNN.

i haven't much to say, as this week is a holiday and thus not much mind shattering events really occured for me to type out.
no one died.
no one gave birth.
no one annoyed me too much.

WOW, eh.
keelyn has nothing to complain.
pfft.

by the time you read this post until here, you should kind of realised that i am just typing random things to fill in the gaps between the pictures, no?

all in all, its just my plan to cheer you up if you're having a suckass day.
or to welcome another new reader to this big happy blog family.
=)

thoughtful much?
heehee

or to waste more time while waiting for my dramas to load.
but maybe you should overlook that *winks*

keelyn

i fear my emotions

2010-11-22T04:53:00.000-08:00

are turning its back on me.

the past 3 days had been a blast into the past, and i can't fully put how i feel into mere words.
the nostalgia yet awkwardness, the familiarity yet strangeness rushed back to me with emotions i don't think i am accustomed to yet.

honestly,
i don't think i'll ever forget this group of people.
going back just confirmed it even more, if what.

the friend that wakes up early just to have breakfast with you.
the friend that still meets up with you after prom to hang out another day with you.
the friends that shares hair dye.

taking the bus, thinking that maybe this time, its for the last time, suddenly choked me up and i found myself crying.

i cried not because of the dreams i left there.
i cried not because of the people i'll miss there.
but i cried because of the memories we could have made, before and even in the future.

keelyn.

ps: i hope i do not regret.

the truth is,

2010-11-16T08:50:00.000-08:00

you do not know the amount of things i want to tell you.

but then again, i have no time for that.
not now, at least.

tell me, have you ever made a wish at 11.11?
works like a spell.

keelyn.

this post is about

2010-11-09T01:29:00.000-08:00

connections.
making connections.
keeping connections.
ending (unneeded) connections.

i admit, i don't do all mentioned above as much as i should.
if i do, at all.
lol. (and dear people its LOL (lough out loud) not LAWL (what does lawl mean anyways?) okay. jeez, wannabes. -.- )

i have a problem with sticking to a topic, if you've realised by now.
okay *clears throat*
1. facebook.
yes, i have mentioned time and time again how i hate that social connecting site but i have to admit, connect people it does.
so get your lazy fingers to the search column and search for that friend you used to laugh with 732643278642 years ago.
or that person you used to know in secondary school.
say hi if facebook asks you too, it might just be a sign.

2. cards.
i like receiving cards.
handmade cards, especially, turn me on like a switch to a bulb. (in a total rated umum way)
speaking of which, remember how there used to be UMUM-untuk tayangan semua bla bla bla before a disney cartoon with the big U sign in the middle? i miss that.
i usually receive pretty cards on my birthdays and only by one person, ROSHWINI ENFYS MUTHIAH.
i don't now though. *insert sadface*

3.is on how to make connections.
i know, its not following the order.
but its because i am spontaneous like that.
unless you are living under a rock for the past 19 years, you'd know the basics.
say hieeeeee.
helllooo.
and no, you don't talk about how sad you are about your dead dog/cat/ anything next.
if you see a pretty girl in pink, say something smart like 'that pink is great on you'.
but don't lie though.
if something is ugly, something is ugly.
the world don't stop and turn blind just because you want to make small talk.

harry potter, 'cause i miss when harry is so young and rawr.
yes, i think its official i have something with cute younger boys.

and lastly,
4. to end connections.
this is by far the easiest thing to do.
have a blog.
write who what why and when that person is being an ass.
post the link on your facebook.

problem solved. =)
ahhh, the wonderful joys technology brings.

*the author does not claim absolute guarantee on any methods mentioned and is not to be blamed if world war 3 occurs.

till then,
keelyn.

and the cow jumped over the moon

2010-11-05T13:53:00.000-07:00

i guess the consequence of sleeping in the middle of the day to late evening is insomnia at night.
5 am and i'm as awake as... an awake person should be.
no tiredness. no fatigue.
NOTHING.

is this how superman/batman/any other mention worthy superhero feels?

i google stuff when i'm bored.
its a (kind of) known fact, google is my best friend.
in fact, google should be everyone's best friend.
informative, funny and entertaining.

do you know that the life expectancy for malaysian women are 68.9 years?
leaves me about (+/-) 50.9 years to go.

which means this blog would be filled with more weird pictures, quotes, life theories, crappy boyband song lyrics and rants for another 50 years.
took out the 0.9 year 'cause i figured i need to take off some time to arrange my funeral.

which reminds me, i watched Death At A Funeral today.
it was... plain twisted. albeit a little bit amusing.
and mind provoking.
made me think of the kind of funeral i would want to have.

i think i want a funeral with lots of white flowers. and everyone giving a speech, crying heavily, as to how i had affected their lives so deeply.
yes, i'd like everyone to suffer when i die.

google also updates me on the current gossip.
apparently Justin Bieber is dating babyface Selena Gomez.
okay i lied.
i heard this on the radio.
i don't go lurk around Justin Bieber's fan page/forum/anything, ya know.

but isn't it funny how Hollywood is just so small?
like how Malacca is small.
(small enough that its possible for you to meet your next door neighbor in Tesco.)

or small enough for Brad Pitt to find Angelina J. And Justin Bieber, Selena Gomez.

i feel like i spend too much time on the internet.
okay so maybe just too much time on blogs.
so much so that i want the bloggers to update their blogs each time i check.
but unfortunately, they have a life and thus leaving me to face with disappointment 34567/345670 of the time.

and so, when i don't see updates, i update my blog.
to appease all the readers out there, so no world shaking, life ending events should occur.
someone could be dieing from boredom out there, no?

NAHHHH.
why is this post so filled with lies?

truth is, i just update because i am finding any small reason not to channel my boredom into my General Principles of Law tutorials.

ps: there's a Love The Way You Lie Part 2. =)

heehee,

keelyn.

hi you.

2010-11-03T08:00:00.000-07:00

you'll never know how it goes by.

how your day differs from that person who sits in front you in class. or that person who you saw on your way to the library.

isn't it funny how we forget the simple random truths about life?

like how there is no real 'happily ever afters'.
just continuous 'it'll get betters'.

how tomorrow will keep coming even if all you want is a pause for life to stop while you catch up.
it doesn't.

you annoy me.
clearly.
dearly.
to no end.

but I will not exchange a minute of my living for your insignificant being.

because you're not worth it.
(in full force maybelline style)

ps: if there's a 'slap a b*tch' day, you better not come out for your own safety.

keelyn.

guess who makes awesome chocolate chip cookies?

2010-10-31T03:42:00.000-07:00

me.

but really, with the cookies in the jar reducing in number (ridiculously) in just one night, how can i not think that? =)
so me is very the happy now.

i have pictures of the legendary chocolate chip cookies, of course.
but its in my phone which is in the room and i am far too lazy to walk to the room to take the phone and the usb to transfer the pics 'cause iPhone is too great to have a bluetooth technology in it.
damnation.

so lets save the pretty pictures for some other time, shall we?
*winks*

i like baking late at night.
its just so... therapeutic.
the whole creaming the butter and sugar, mixing in the chocolate chips, waiting in front of the oven, smelling the slight waft of baked goodness in the air.

EVERYTHING.

my biggest achievement of yet is the ability to produce edible baked goods.
so much of a law student? pfft.
in fact, lim keeaun asked me the other day.

'ehh your life very easylah. just bake bake and online only, don't even need to study. i jealous.'

-.-

i do study okay.
just not now. haha!

now off i go to 'bake bake and online',

keelyn.

if you're happy and you know it.

2010-10-27T08:18:00.000-07:00

do you know that an ulcer in a hidden place in your mouth is like a fucken long distance relationship?

you KNOW clearly well he/she/it is there, but there's always this distance separating you and that bloody pain.
(i just made that up, but damn i'm good.)

i grow up believing in disney and sappy korean dramas.
but then now all i hear about is how who cheated who and who is breaking/ had broken up with who.

its depressing, really.

i blame hollywood.
all the glitzy scandals and hookups, jeez.
is it really that difficult, love?

as much as i hate to admit, i find myself rejecting the idea of true love more and more.
and i use to be such a romantic.

i can see myself at 53.
old.
wrinkly.
probably toothless.
cranky, of course.
and single.

minus the 36726347 cats that come with old, wrinkly single women though, 'cause i hate cats.

but no one would and could ever know what will happen, right?
i mean paul the bloody octopus did, but that didn't end well.

good thing though heehee.
=)
never liked that germany's- gonna- lose predicting octopus anyways.
blehhh.

but then again even if i was offered to be told my entire future in detail, i'd refuse.

i'll feel so helpless then.

wrote by,
keelyn <3

of weddings and happy occasions.

2010-10-24T06:55:00.000-07:00

so i went to my cousin's wedding that i was practically d.r.e.a.d.i.n.g. a whole month ago.
to me a wedding is like a proclamation of love by two people.
so i don't believe it should be a huge affair, just a small one with close relatives would do.

and in my family (at least my mother's side) weddings are a HUGE deal. they meet once in every 4356487 years during weddings, and trust me when i say everyone diets/exercises/undergo surgeries/beautify themselves for the wedding.
in a way, weddings in my family turns to a mini solo fashion show to compare.

but after even 346376583 protests and fake acts of any kind of physical pain, i was forced to go.

what to do kan? mother panggil, takkan wanna say no?
(chehh, good daughter LOL)
okay truth been told, i said no lah, but she said the magic line.
'then next time don't ask from me anything already'
ish mothers.

so i wentlah.

and you know, it isn't THAT bad.
in fact, this wedding kind of changed my opinions on weddings, a little.
these are some of the discoveries i made;

DISCOVERY no.1: i feel like brides look super gorgeous on their wedding days, magically.
like this particular bride is said to look like my aunty, which lets just say, wasn't the most gifted appearance wise, thus me being me, expected the worst. but when she (the bride) came to our view, she was actually sweet looking, and pretty even!
amazing, huh.

DISCOVERY no.2 : i think marriages remind people (both married and/or with someone) a little bit about love.
to the married, it reminds them why they are married. (i saw an old couple holding on to each other the whole time, when they are really a no affection in public couple before this)
to the in love, it reminds them how they too, could be like that, somewhere in the future.(jeremy, if you're reading this, go get married quick! hehehe)

and more than anything
DISCOVERY no.3: is that the brothers of bride that plays the piano are usually hot. and a good topic of conversation for cousins you lose contact with for 4564387 years.

but really, gahh is it legal to want to bring him and his keyboard home?

keelyn.

the right way to live, not that i would know.

2010-10-14T09:35:00.000-07:00

ehhh rain in the sahara deserts!
albert einstein's reincarnation is Lady Gaga!
ice melting in North Pole!

(guess which is really happening eh?)
2 blog posts in one day, rajin teramat sangat kan?
*smiles*

i feel like i am killing (whatever little) left of my youth with the lack of brain activity.
at 18+ yes.

i'll not even find an excuse for myself to be up at 1 am.
no, i am not studying.
i am actively reading 3645328728746 posts from Blogger X, laughing out loud and then sighing in tiredness, absolutely intrigued like Charlie when he saw his first Oompa Loompa.

i read an article today.
on how small beady asian eyes are the way to live now.
not that i necessarily agree (nor disagree) but i find it laughable.
like the overused joke of flying to korea to get 35743487593 surgeries done, and now its supposedly cool to have them small eyes. i mean think about those who actually took the time to fly across half the globe to go get approved by media as the ideal beauty and then BAM!INYAFACE to be slammed back like 'oops, i guess that surgery was uncalled for, small eyes are the best thing since gardenia again.'

and not only eyes generally, i think it applies to everything.

like how the whole world says that only a -7563476574363kg person is considered pretty.
or how you have to own pores tighter than the vaginas of a nun.

i mean, who came up with theories like that anyways?
i guess i understand why they ban women to watch tv/internet/ any form of communicating with the world in some countries.

though i would bitchslap the next person who tries to take my internet access away.

i feel like a social outcast (which I probably am, typing this at 1.30 am when half my class are probably sleeping to look good for their friends tomorrow/ partying with their buds till tomorrow)

keelyn fact #657: i am still in love with westlife.

and replaying their songs with lyrics i already know by heart makes me feel like a superwoman with well er, super powers.

lol jk, but it makes me bangga sangatlah.
i guess i still don't have to worry about amnesia.

my sisters were watching and old westlife Vcd (cause there's no dvds in zaman mesopotamia) and keemi suddenly commented ' eh mark dont look like a gay though, ehh?'

dear keemi, if every gay person looked like a gay person, and every lesbo looked like a lesbo, i'd probably get shot in the head a million times over for homosexuality.
i swear with the headache that comes with my lingkaran kewanitaan and the lack of sleep, i look not much different from that hobo across the street. looking at you. creepily.

THINGS I SHOULD DO.
-i shall read more books.
i feel as if i lost part of my brain for the lack of proper english words to use or type or speak. blehh.
-i shall watch the 35463756 to watch movies on my list.
-i shall menjalankan (see what i mean about my non-existence of english vocab?) Project TEP I. (heehee)

and last but not least, i shall sleep now.

ps: someone added me on FB, and it is a fucken dog.
and no, its not a i'm-a-person- but- i- put- my- dog- as- my- primary- picture- because- i- have- lowass- self- eesteem. its a fricken dog with a fave quote of 'woof woof'.
like what is the point of having a fb account for a dog?
and wtf are you thinking, adding me as a friend? what?! i look like some dog lover who'd woof back?

i swear FB-ers have the imagination of a sugar high Stephanie Meyers.
vampires and werewolfs and fb using dogs pfft.

keelyn.

a sore ass hurts more than an ass.

2010-10-14T06:02:00.000-07:00

great.
just gurreeat.

i have the full intention to blog and my internet has decided to go on an average speed of a sick pms-y snail to that of a dead snail.

which only means, sadly, no pictures to entertain you readers.

which would probably leads to a reduction of >90% of the enjoyment in reading my posts as compared to the fun we find in my normality blog posting way.

but sad life is sad, so i'll just move on to the next agenda, ehh.

don't you find that people always talk about what they want?
well dear life, you know what I want?

I. Just. Want. A. Slice. Of. Red. Velvet. Cake.

seriously.
not even the whole darn thing.
all i'm asking for is just one fricken slice.
this craving is kind of killing me HELLO.
the damn cycle of craves, gahh.
like at first you kind off want to try it, then you think about it more, and more and MOREEE and bam.
its all over your fucken head.

its a disease i swear.

and so, being the RESOURCEFUL person that i am, i of course googled the best tasting red velvet cake places and whaddawonderfulworldehh all of them are in SUBANG.

damn, i wish i live in subang.

and i cant even post a pic of the red awesomeness here due to my suckass connection.

life's good, no?
pfft.

*

i think eat pray love is a really good movie.
like really, really good.

i don't read the book, so i'd probably wont ever know whether the book> movie (which probably is as in all cases) but i'm liking it so far.

not to mention julia roberts look dropdeadgorgeous is that movie.
in a totally non lesbo way, okay.

*

i realized that my mum is actually uber cool, and is a total fashionista
(or at least she was back in her prime days)while yours truly was rumagging through her wardrobe.

the completeness of all the eighties retro-ish clothes she owns is no joke.
and best part?

its called vintage now.

recycled fashion is great. *loves*

*

i realise i am an obsessive writer.
like i write things to get rid of the feelings in me.
i saw an old book i used to have in secondary school, and it amazes me how much i scribble.

lines here, pages there, all strewn upon the used notebook.
i even make Rosh and Peits draw and write stuff they think of me.

(yes guys, i did, and you guys did.)

and why does it sound so lame when typed out eh? it kind of felt cool back then.
like we shared this bond or something.
we probably still do (you guys are stuck with me for life), its just that i wish we had time to do silly stuff like this again.

ps: i don't know why this sounds so emo (-.-)

*

i have 73648324873 (okay so maybe 3-4) pictures of great food to post, but thank you internet connection.
so i'd probably post it some other day.

pps: i find this dialogue in The Pineapple Express highly amusing.

Red: Man, I'm just into Buddhism, and I'm at peace with the fact that me, as this person, probably gonna not be around. Think about a hermit crab, okay? And it's a shell. It's like, they go from one shell to the next. And that's what I am. I'm just a hermit crab changin' shells.
Dale Denton: Except if you're a dick your whole life, your next shell will be made of shit, okay? If you're an asshole, you're gonna come back as a cockroach or a worm or a fuckin' anal bead, okay? If you're a man and you act heroic, you'll come back as an eagle. You'll come back as a dragon. You'll come back as Jude Law, okay? Which would you rather be?
Red: Maybe the anal bead, depending on who it belongs to.
Dale Denton: Belongs to me.
Red: Then the dragon.

funny, no?

keelyn.

Hello is just another way of saying 'ooh its you again'.

2010-10-05T04:36:00.000-07:00

if you've been an avid reader you would've sensed my absence, which honestly was since that time a baby Pachyrhinosaurus was born.

I've been making up blog posts in my head but quite honestly I've never really put those thoughts in action.
to say i lost my blogging momentum would be underrating this... act of mine.

i'd like to say that i've passed these non blogging days to do life changing things like volunteering at the local old folks' home.
or read 26435472923 biographies on people too great to have been dead.
worked out alot, wrote meaningful cards to people i adore and maybe even pre-studied my crazy law subjects.

but the truth isn't always quite as generous.
theres always this cycle of quotidian that we go back into somehow, someway.
like the things that i do which mainly consists of;

*watching the cliche kdramas that remind me repetitiously that i should go get hit by a car soon, and get amnesia to revive my love life.
*youtube-ing remake love songs from Philippine singers like this, this and this. (which honestly was fun-ner and amazing-er than expected)
*google-ing bombastic words that i'd probably forget or never use in future english essays to come. (who'd use HORS D'OEUVRES or ICONOCLAST anyways pfft.)
*ate, ate and ate more with Tan Sher Lee.

but then again there's probably more to the list that i can't remember right now.

*attempts at rolling eyes*
how does one roll eyes anyways jeez.

but i also gave myself room to discover and think deep things when i am not saying 'hey hiiii! how are you?' on FB chat.
for example, i discovered that cream puffs are actually harder to make than they look.
in comparison to cheese cakes, which are easier.
i could go on and on about my analogy on how things dont always appear the way they are, but that could get messy and emo-fy this post; which I am not into right now.
or how this rich man old enough to be my grandfather is trying to make me his no.64328462 mistress. (no joke.)
and thought life changing things like whether or not I should cut my hair short. like short short.

its always comforting to know that you have this system of support no matter what you do.
people that will say 'its okay, i agree with you, i'll respect your decision'.
funny how you get 432645356 views per day on your blog, 34637653 likes on your FB but not one sms to ask you how its been. or how you're doing. how was your day.

on the other not so sad emo hand, i get a whole lot of things i want these days.
+ crazy LOAD of shopping.
+ foods that i love
+ gadgets!
+ more crazy shopping.
+ more good cuisine.

BURP.
*grins*

overall, i'd sum up my past few weeks with David Archuleta's ELEVATOR. (go give it a hear!)

Elevator goes up
Elevator come down
And you just go with the flow
Until your feet are back on the ground
It's an endless ride
Sometimes it takes you up
Sometimes it tears you down inside
But it's the butterflies
That keep you feeling so alive, so alive
You gotta get back that high

The World's Greatest Lie.

2010-10-02T23:50:00.000-07:00

i need to update+ increase my music library.
and trust me, its a need > a want right now.

blehh, the boredom of listening to the same 'ol songs over and over and over and over and overrrr again.

ps: radio does not help either.
SADNESS.

one week of my holiday has come and is almost gone.
it makes me wonder how time speeds past us.

i am not a punctual person, i know.
but i am not ignorant enough to see pass this.
you.
me.
how we have all come this far, some stopped halfway, some rest, some speeds up.

time.

oh how it changes who we were and who we've become.

funny how when i started this post i plan to drone on about lighter topics.
like how Glee should stop all that singing already.
or how i would want a house near the oceans some day.
maybe even about the 3278432878928478 amounts of buses coming to and fro my house each day, with all their Philippian/indonesian passengers.
creepy shyt, that.

oh but who knows?
the future is untold, and quoting Paulo Coelho in his book, The Pilgrimage; Time does not always pass at the same speed. We are the ones who determine that speed.

so until then, stay with me on the same page, yeah?

will roshwini enfys muthia become the newest member of a royal scottish family?
or will tay pei ting turn out to be the greatest thing in the business industry since lim goh tong.
will ong wei jiun turn out to be aimst's no.326437637865437 pharmaco lecturer?
and will i finally become miss universe 9090?

we'll find out soon enough, wont we?

till then,
keelyn.

At a certain point in our lives, we lose control of what's happening to us, and our lives become controlled by fate. That's the world's greatest lie.
Paulo Coelho
The Alchemist.

RANT;

2010-09-30T22:48:00.000-07:00

a loud bombastic declamation expressed with strong emotion.

THIS WILL BE A RANT SO SKIP IF NECESSARY.

*breathes in*

FIRST OF ALL, okay so remember how i said FB is nothing but a means of keeping in touch with people you want in your life?
Yes.
So what the hell is wrong with wanting to choose who you want in your life huh?
DUDE.
just because you added me DOES NOT MEAN that i have to accept your fricken friend request shyt OHKAY.

ooh and whats all with the show off my life's oh so great people on FB huh?
ohkay, we get it, you have a crazy wackass charlie and the chocolate factory life on a day to day basis. so stop showering AND spamming some person's freaking home page with that crap okayy.
i mean XX, goes on and on and on and onnnnn about her going here and there, doing this and that.
GAWD.

shut up bitch.

and then there's of course blogs.
i find reading other's blogs fun, and therapeutic in a way.
its like you're being friends with this person, without needing to be friends with 'em.
so obviously, when someone kind of catches my attention (wtf sounds so wrong!) i'd check out his/her blog (if him/her has a blog).
but the no.1 thing i hate is private blogs.

WHAT ARE YOU? SOME CELEBRITY?!!
IF you are going to have an online blog, BUT do not want people to read it, why dont you just freaking buy a fucken diary and scribble all over it, huh?
Don't go 'private-ise' you fucken blog and letting people like me, here sitting in front of the screen, waiting for the fucken blog page thing to load, to see a XX's Blog is only invited to private readers bla bla shyt.

argh. DAMN YOU.

and whats up with the asses of motorcyclists these days?
CAN. THEY. NOT. KNOW.THAT. THE. FUCKEN. MIDDLE. LANE. IS. FOR. CARS?!

LIKE HELLO!
seriously, are they even like sure they passed the damned imma be a motorcyclist road test thing?
they just HAVE to stick their annoying asses to the middle where cars are supposed to go through and risk their sorry lives like that huh?
and the selfishness of that, too!
like a whole fucken dozen of cars will be waiting behind some old perverted ass motorcyclist uncle with his kid behind, 'cz he's too 'good' to use the side lane, which are supposedly the fucken motorcyclist lane.

like hey if someday i happen to knock into you dont come blaming me ohkay shytface.
like go get a freaking car if you want to be in the middle ohkay.
jeez.

damnation. *glares*

*breathes out*

okay end of rant.

keelyn.

ps: i probably sound like a spoilt/ bitter/ evil bitch here but wth i typed skip if necessary at the start ohkay you annoying ass busybody.
and pps: it takes a bitch to know a bitch, BITCH.

okay officially end of rant.
*grins*

guess what?!

2010-09-26T19:19:00.000-07:00

I've got myself an OVEN!

*in singsong voice*
i've got myself an oven,
i've got myself an oven,
i've got myself an oven!

can.you.not.see.my.excitement.???
=)

ANYWAYSSSS, besides an oven, we bought like a cake mixing machine, 2 dvd players and and AND, a new water flask thing-y.
'Cause my mum's a billionaire.
*grins*

Nah, just joking. Wish she was though.
But she must've THOUGHT she was when she bought all those. =)

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so this holiday (yes, and at such PERFECT TIMING TOO! *bigger grin* ) i shall bake bake bake away! =)
Baked moist chocolate cake yesterday, turned out not bad!My siblings are like 'ehh nicelah, not bad! yummy <-- i feel like this lah) =)

Too bad i didn't had the chance to take a picture of it. Those piranhas of a sibling of mine was practically gobbling down the whole thing as we speak.

Is it possible maybe to have a love so strong
That nothing could ever compare
I'm holding back nothing just for the look in your eyes
So baby don't be surprised

Ryan Tedder

go give it a listen. TAN SHER LEE has great taste in music, I'll admit.
Been my latest obsession since I give it a listen on sher lee's tumblr.

(sher lee, happy not??)
LOL.

Anyways, to dear ROSHWINI ENFYS MUTHIAH, remember our plan to cook for each other and imma do the desserts?
I'LL MAKE AN AWESOME ONE WITH MY NEW OVEN KAYY?
*all smiles*

so when lahh are you going to come back down to Malacca?
(cehhh, macam inviting the queen of england je. BANGGA NOT?? LOLs.)

PS: I randomly chatted with some dude on FB, an di'm beginning to think tis a bad idea 'cause he sounds creepy.
Andwhatifhelikestalksmeandthenkillsmeandusemybonesastoothpickslater?
OMFG.

keelyn.

hawaiian pizza

2010-09-25T01:39:00.000-07:00

i want to keep in touch with all my friends through snail mail.
there, i said it.

NO JOKELAHH.

i've always WANTED to but somehow the thought always slips off my mind (insert exams, living, sleeping, bla bla bla) but yesss, i DO want to keep in touch, or just randomly write a letter to the people i love most.

receiving a letter is always more joyful than receiving an sms.
its like getting a present on a normal, random day and getting a present on your birthday.

its the surprise that excites us.
(or at least this writer thinks so)

2nd day of loitering around is... eventful, for a lack of better words.
i shall type out my day.

ate my breakfast with family.
decided on random to go to MUAR (with my mum ). (to see a fortune teller -.- wtf rite LOL.)
after being lost for like 6454372848932748 hours (at least thats what it FEELS like!), we finally found it.

=)

and you knowwwww?

it was such a disappointment.

i mean go blame me all you want but when you go to a fortuneteller, you expect them to i don't know... FORTUNE TELL? (ie, talk about how GREAT your future will be, how your future s/o will be bla bla bla)
yeah.

but INSTEAD, the conversation went like this;

ME: so... will i do well? will i be successful?
HER: Yeah yeah, girl, EVERYONE wants success. but success will not come if theres no effort. And not only that, you should do good things, karma bla bla think good thoughts bla bla be good to your parents bla bla believe in yourself bla.

IT BECAME A MOTIVATIONAL PREP TALK whuttheeff.

now isnt that FUN? *smirks*

and this woman, who was supposedly the 'helper' of the fortune teller was like all protocol and rule.

there's a dog there, and obviously, me being ME, was scared. a dog okayy, a DOG.
(not that i am any less afraid of other animals lah, but lets talk about that in another post, eh?)

and i was like;

ME: EH I TAKUT ANJING...
HER: *looks of dissapprovement* EHHH KAK (shes OLDER THAN ME OKAYY! around 30-ish summore! -.- ) jangan cakap anjing. tak boleh cakap itu anjinggg... tak baikkk.

WTH.

then call what lah?

ME: oooh... um... ahh, i takut dia.
HER: *nods in agreement and acceptance of 'dia'*

i cant even type that i rolled my eyes because i can't freaking roll my eyes.

i was just like *cringing in discomfort* i want to leavelahhhh.

and and ANDDDD, finally, after ALL THAT, we (me and my mum) finished the 'fortune telling cum prep talk', wanted to LEAVE. (logical-est thing okay)

BUT the helper's like

HER: ehh jangan balik dulu. makan dulu.
MY MUM: tak payah lahh, kita kenyang. and i kena hantar anak saya pergi tuition.
HER: *look of disapprovement AGAIN* tak baikkkkk. mesti makan!
ME AND MY MUM: *unwillingly agreed*

and the food was some spaghetti like noodle, fried. mee goreng mamak style. minus the mamak.

and my first (small teeny) bite, and i ate a chunk of salt.

SUPER SUEH CAN??

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and then we drove back from MUAR, me all scarred from the whole experience, and so my mum and i decided to watch a movieee!
(me wants to watch wallstreet =) )

BUT THEN, as luck would have it, my mother suddenly remembered about my younger brother's tuition.
so we rushed back, in super speed, and came back to fetch the brat to tuition,but he didnt want to go just cause he was half an hour late.

LIKE HELLO?
i went half an hour late for my classes, but i still WENT!

ish.

okayy so maybe i was more annoyed at the fact that i missed movie(s) for something that didn't happen in the end but go eat a chunk of salt and then tell me you wont be annoyed.

and so finally, thats how i decided that i want to be a DJ.

(random, much?)

but no, really i read an article about the benefits of being a DJ, and then the radio talks of being a DJ, and i believe its a sign from God that i am meant for this.

pfft~

*joins i-want-to-be-a-DJ-when-i-grow-up club in FB*

kthatsallfrommenow,

Keelyn.

*because DJ's have to speak fast. *

Many the Miles

2010-09-24T05:27:00.000-07:00

There's too many things that I haven't done yet
There's too many sunsets I haven't seen
You can't waste the day wishing it'd slow down
You would have thought by now
I'd have learned something, yeah

Sara Bareilles- Many the Miles

I AM A HAPPY, HAPPY PERSON! =)
SO SO HAPPY.

SO VERY HAPPY.

exams over! FINALLY, SERIOUSLY, OFFICIALLY.
But the bummer is the one week holiday (which sucks MMU, so go take a hint okayy!)but ahh, who cares? i am a happy person. today.

if blogging was the new talking, i'm officially the quiet-est person you've ever seen.
its not like i didn't want to blog.
more like i typed and erased about >1 but < a million times.

but this holidays, i plan to not waste it and do meaningful stuff like:-

* Volunteering
* Go for yoga/pilates
* Read more books

and most importantly,

*Sleep like a freaking sloth.

**SUBJECT TO CONTRACT.

i really think i've been out of the blogging scene for too long.
i suddenly lose ability to think and type at the same time.

i'm losing a track of my thoughts.

and here i am, sitting, staring at the screen while having an online FB wall spam with Saw Lyn Gek.

and suddenly, i think of funny/weird/ sweet/ alien-ish things people have said/does in my 18++ (gaspssss! )years of life.

like how Saw Lyn Gek will say 'eh you know bla *insert things to say* bla!' *with eyes open wide* and then we'll laugh together.

like how Tan Sher Lee will call me a kampung girl when i say 'geli nia'.

like how Ong Wei Jiun
always gives me the BEST advices ever.

like how of all things, he gives me a soft toy.

i went to Tesco that day and it seems heaven comes in RM17 packages these days.
If i'm not mistaken, the label of the package says NUTELLA.

but my long lost and founded again love for PEANUT BUTTER has just rekindled. ate them for one week straight- OMG I AM SO LOYAL.

i don't understand why people dislike driving alone.
driving alone is my kind of thing.

its relaxing.
with the songs blasting out loud, and your thoughts running everywhere.

keelyn.

listening to a song

2010-09-14T05:07:00.000-07:00

with depressing lyrics when you have to study instead is sad.
sad, depressing, anything in synonym to emotions as mentioned.

gahh.
don't you hate how exams make you feel like a no life?
you study, sucks.
you don't study, feel guilty, STILL sucks.

hagg. bummerlykHELL.

april tay pei ting is the most weirdest name combo i've heard in my 18++ years of living.
i mean april is sooo... floral-y, and spring-y. tay pei ting's sooo... iono, no floral-y and spring-y.

NOT THAT ITS A BAD COMBO.
AT ALL.
its like fries and coke.
who thought they'd go well, but hey thats why old man, McDonalds is earning all the big bucks, eh?
*smirks*

peits like to boast that i am her enemy turned best friend to anyone who listens, and i guess i never noticed, but maybe its her way of showing her sense of pride in our relationship.

i mean how many people can actually go, ' Oh yeah, i hated her guts when we were neighbours back when we are -376475837435 years old but she's my bestie now.'

tay pei the ting can.

and we were close, especially when we were in our Form Five year, sitting beside each other and all.

but maybe not so much now.

back when i was farrrraway, (far as in kedah far), that was my reason of not keeping in touch with people i love.
not that i love them any less.

its just that people who know me will know that i don't do the call every twice a week thing. i'd assume we are still equally as close.

but then now when i am back in Malacca, why am i still not calling people up?
why am i still not meeting people up?

if what, i avoided them all together.

and so here's a public apology to Miss weirdnamecombo for being an ass. and not keeping in touch. and making us less close, when we the neighbours since young, should be closer than any one (ahemboikotroshahem)

=)

and honestly, i do have fun whenever we DO hang out, although its just sleeping at your house for 34638752938 hours.

keelyn.

don't get me wrong,

2010-09-11T07:51:00.000-07:00

its not like i am living worriless, free, life's wonderful and i have nothing but to blog life.

i do have a life (despite the amount of time spent online might show otherwise), and i do have the bloodsucking thing called exams.
and stuff to do. (ranging from the innocent wash my dishes to the not so innocent and highly complicating 'regina vs. willians' and whole 'is penang ceded or settled?' studying to do)

but then... screw all of 'em.
for now at least.

i realise that facebook, like all other technological keep- in- touch methods, are being highly on the surface.
lets face it.
yours truly, like the other 435637385743762 users of facebook, type the 'omg i haven't see you in years! lets meet up! lets keep in touch! god, you're so gorgeous now! *insert other bimbo sounding praises* every once in a while. (if you consider every time i log in 'once in a while')

and then what?

we compare.
and take 352643276218 pictures trying to prove that our life is really, actually fun-ner and better than the girl/guy who sat beside us in our pimple filled form 2 self.

and the relationships we claim to still have online.
like how i would comment on your picture just for you to comment on mine, sometime else.
we do things we have to,liking the right things, watching the popular enough dramas, hearing the coolest music and writing enough lika-able statuses just to build this sort of self image of us on this online website probably created by this bunch of geeks that haven't step out of their houses since graduation. (then again, i'm just SPECULATING, but the probability of my speculation to be accurate is also probably 80%. which is bloody well an A.)

rewind, pause and play.

i miss when talking means me calling you in the middle of the night to talk about our futures.
or when funny means chasing you in school field and when you fell, broke your leg and we laughed over it the next second.
or when friendship means someone who just gets you. without needing to insert silly emoticons, smileys, and whatnot.

its not that i am anti-facebook or anything, really.
in fact, the reason i've managed to keep in touch with 46352819845783628 of my almost-forgotten friends is BECAUSE of facebook.

its just that sometimes i miss the simple-ness of everything.
when things is not this tangled up, messy, haywire ball of lets pretend confusing-ness.

when you and i are friends because i like your shirt colour.
or maybe because we both have the same favorite disney character.

or because you, like me,opens a friendster account,type originate from 'belle vue', watch weirdos add us and then leave our accounts to rot, laughing about it at school.

i dig nelly-just a dream alot these days.
probably because its comforting to know someone's life is worst off than mine.
(saddist much?)

short term goal: tomorrow i shall be trigger happy. and be positive about everything. and i shall not add people randomly on FB that will be of no purpose/hold special ties in my life.

long term goal: i shall not let anyone (no matter HOW CLOSE) to affect my emotions. and to finally eat/bake a rainbow colored cake. i shall create my own FB/TWITTER-like website and make lots of cold hard $$$$$.

ps: i probably should stop obsessing about rainbow colored cakes.

sonotLOL issue wei.

keelyn.

2010-09-09T03:03:00.000-07:00

sometimes i feel like i just cannot understand you.

no matter how hard i try.

Well...

2010-09-06T07:22:00.000-07:00

i have good internet access, so why not eh?

current lyric playing like a fricken ipod on replay : and when i see your face, the whole world stops and stare for a while.

BOB- JUST THE WAY YOU ARE.

my exams faster than i can count.
okayy, just joking.
exams in 2 weeks.

or less.
but still in countable terms.
*hallelujah*

i came across this blogger which i liked, (in terms of writing style and online entertainment value) and i suddenly realised that i am not a very good blogger.
like i write things that interest me.
amuses me.

basically i feel like a self obsessed a*shole blogger.

Keelyn Fact # 547: i like to cry every once in a while.
just for no reason, just for fun, just to release the stress (if i have any) or unused water inside of me.

and in fact, like less than an hour ago, i was on the peak of my crying season so i decided to watch some sad pathetic drama/ movie.

The Door.

it seems okay, short (16 minutes ++), and apparently was nominated for Oscars and won 4 other awards. AND was rated 5 stars in some online movie website.

verdict: sad but not crying kinda sad. more like 'ooh, i see... well thats sad." kinda sad.

guess i'll have to opt back to my trustworthy titanic in times of distress like such.

and btw i want to watch Pineapple Express badly.
ooh and i realised that I am more of a movies person. (as compare to a book person)

but then i am more a music person then a movies person.

so basically music> movies> books.

and yes, in case you're wondering (and for those who aren't even noticing) i've turned 360 degrees to talk about me again.
me, me, ME.

i swear its a disease.

keelyn.

*

edit; i've just googled it, and it IS a disease.
its called i rock ma sock so shut up disease.

nah just joking.
its called narcissism.
and guess what people??
its a psychological disorder.

Festivities To Come

2010-09-05T00:07:00.000-07:00

i have a lot to think about these days.
have you ever had that feeling like when someone (random people, people that mean a lot to you, just ANYONE) says something to you and it just sticks to you, like glue?
the thought gets churned and digested in you, and it can't leave you for days?

like the lyrics of a song you hate.

aflah said that people get influenced by others easily.
like if you think of yourself as one mega HOTTIE, and truly believe it, people do too.
eventually.
at first i disagree, but then it kind of makes sense, and now i stand by the theory.

i mean some people, we label them as the first time see not pretty, but gets pretty longer kind.
but seriously, is there even that kind.
its either you're hot, or you're not.

right...?

this theory will stick to you like an effing elephant glue for the days to come, trust me.

i used to have weird ass bad self esteem issues (not that i don't have now) but at least its a whole load better now.

i still have days when nothing goes right and i just want to melt into a puddle of ugly-ness and die.
and days when i swear every mirror in my house is biased and twisted and blind. (LOL)

but then some days i feel okay, like 'hey i am actually prettylahh!'
(ps: dun pfft me okayy!)
and days when i feel like "omg thank god for this face!" *smiles*

so i guess, everything is really in the head.
and how you feel influences what others think about you.
in a BIG way.

i mean come and think of it; most of the time i get emo 'cause people around me starts to get emo.

*reads past emo postS*

or maybe not.
but emo-ness is a new cool thing larr, dun blame can.
and i am happy now, so lets just live in the present, and forget the past, eh?!
=)

keelyn.

Curiosity kills the cat.

2010-09-04T02:04:00.000-07:00

AND APPARENTLY, SPONTANEITY BRINGS YOU TO KL.

and then back to malacca. then back again to kayell.and then malacca again.
-.-

tiring much?
definitely.
but damn fun cannnn? =)
*grins*

it started when i wanted to send HIPPO to kayell, so we met up and stuff. talked for a while and she suddenly asked me to follow her to kayell.
i was like 'ehh?!' but then i thought ooh what the heck so i agreed.
MAMA HIPPO agreed to follow too, and in less than an hour's time, we went back to mu house, grab my stuff, went to MALACCA SENTRAL, parked my car and off we went.

to KAYELL, yes.

went to University X, did some stuff for HIPPO and then to Mid Valley.
what did we do there...?

EAT,EATING,EATEN,ATE.
more eating.

CAMWHORING.
SHOPPING. (OMG SALESSSSS! =) )
WALKING.
MORE WALKING.
RUSHING HERE AND THERE.

and sending MAMA HIPPO to the train station.
took a train for the first time (to KAYELL SENTRAL) so cool =) (but JAPAN'S train is wayy cool-er and clean-er laa)

next day was supposed to go to University X for HIPPO's class, but of course, we slept overtime and missed it.
and i had a presentation at 2.
ps: it was already 10+ smtg at that time.

CRAZY MUCH?
very.

so changed plans, and decided to drive down malacca for the presentation which i better score well in OR ELSE.
rushed to M University and did THE presentation (which turned out okay)
managed to do some stuff for my computer application assignment (dieewebsitediee), and then rushed back to M University.

met HIPPO and MAMA HIPPO for dinner, and off HIPPO and me went back to kayell.
(was around 10)

drove on the highway for the first time.
SPEED,SPEEDING, SPEED MORE.

120 KMPH BABY! =)
ADRENALINE RUSH.
FUNNESS.
*loves*

reached kayell around 11 something (1 hour ONLY, sooo cool kan?!) , SLEPT LIKE A FREAK.
SLEPT MORE.

HIPPO was supposed to finish her english assignment but slept like me.
lazyness la tuu.

but next morning, woke up around 6 something to LOVE THE WAY YOU LIE 'cz the ever so genius HIPPO set the fricken alarm to my 'favorite' song.
damnit.

teman-ed HIPPO do assignment.

around 9 something we slept.
YES, AGAIN.

SLEEP, SLEEPING, SLEPT.

woke up around 10 something and rushed to McD's for the free wifi.
didn't have a cable and thus computer not working therefore leading to no free wifi.
SUCKS man.

(but had great pancake and hashbrowns thou!)

rushed to University X to finish assignment.

DRAMA. DRAMA. LACK OF TIME. EXTRA TIME.
went to Mid Valley again to waste time.

PORRIDGE-ed.FOOD-ed.MANGO ICE SHAVED LOLO THINGY-ed. TEPPANYAKI-ed.
bought the ever so fluffy tasting, sugar filled, diabetes inducing KRISPY KREME.

RUSHED BACK TO University X.
Got stuck in the typical KAYELL traffic jam.
waited. waited. more waiting.

reached University X.
passed up assignment.
a lil oscar acting.

met up with other fellow malaccans from University X (which is also carpooling our car).

for privacy purposes, (and lack of memory power) we shall name them A,B and C.

dropped A,B, and C at a food court, rushed home and packed.
ate.
drank the useless caffeine filled coffee.
ate bread, earlier bought Krispy Kreme and more bread.

packed.
went in the car, decide who's driving and picked up A,B and C.

HIPPO drove back to Malacca, and reached in around 1 hour time, (120 kmph again baybeh! =) )

dropped off A,B and C.
met up with MAMA HIPPO.

chicken cheese naan-ed and tom yam fried rice-ed together.
talked.laughed.more talk.argued on how to kill a fly. laughed.sparkled.

stayed over at HIPPO's house (with it being so late and all)

stupid coffee which didn't work made us sleepy.
bathed.
not so sleepy anymore.

talked to HIPPO.
heart to heart.
nail to nail.

you get it, right?
bonded.

damn coffee finally kicked in our systems.
talked.laughed.giggled.tried biting the flesh of HIPPO. (me, lol)

slept at around 4 something ish.
woke up around 9 something ish.
did chores. (being our brothers)

went home.

and its already 5 something ish in the evening and i am dead beat.
damn tired.
BUT, i can't sleep.

STUPID COFFEE.

so yes basically the whole post is on the not good side effects of coffee.
and the great-ness of having great friends.

PS: Happy 13 years, HIPPO.
PPS: MAMA HIPPO, sparkle. pfft.
PPPS: I HAVE 14 DAYS TO MY EXAMS. SHIT.

keelyn.

My Picture Blog

2010-08-30T02:28:00.000-07:00

hey peeps, thanks for reading this blog!

Click on the post title to see my pretty lil tumblr, kayy! ♥

xoxo,
keelyn.

All The Pretty Things

2010-08-30T01:39:00.000-07:00

you know how when you have to decide something in a split second, and you catch your breath, be it a small or big decision?

the slight moment when you can't think too much, you have to just act it out.
right then and there.

adrenaline rush

i feel disappointed in me these days.

why oh whylaa can't i stick to something long enough?
i feel like everything is so darn screwed because of the way i am.

gah sucky feelings sucks.

and oooh i can't wait to go shopping.
i preview-ed shop last week and bought a pretty white blouse and black HIGH WAIST (FTW baby! =) ) skirt.
sosuperexcitedandhappy cann?
thus conclusion ialah; i must go shopping after the exams.
MUST.
but after the fricken examslaa, lim keelyn.
ugh exams are such blood suckerslaa.
watch me stay up tonight fricken malaysian legal history.

imma finish you and your fricken chapters like you're a bloody interesting love novel.

and i want a new phone laaa.
blackberry.
or the QWERTY samsung corby in pink and white.

somethinglaaa.

i want soo much kan?
my mother says that i am her biggest liability, but then again, all mothers say that to their kids, no?

*grins*

xoxo,
keelyn.

can we pretend that airplanes in the night skies are like shooting stars?

2010-08-26T04:52:00.000-07:00

NO. WE CANT. OKAY, WHY THE FUCK WOULD YOU DO THAT?
Even if if a fucking airplane- Like what the hell is the purpose of PRETENDING that an airplane is like a shooting star, okay?
NEWS FLASH!, If you wish on an airplane, NOT SHIT IS GONNA HAPPEN, AND CHANCES ARE, IF YOU WISH ON A SHOOTING STAR NOT SHIT IS GONNA HAPPEN, WHAT THE FUCK ARE WE?

12?!!

-overexposed, its kingsley bitch-

hahahahasosofunnylmaolol
*dies*

FMLFMLFML
i locked myself outside my room.
and left a VERY VERRYYY IMPORTANT file inside.

easy, just open the door right?
one thing, i lost the key a while back.

yes, i know right??
FML.

-.-

i guess i am superstitious to some extent.
like when the 'tukang tilik' man said that red is bad luck for me.
and so i hate red.
and blame evrything bad to the color red.

ookayyy so maybe 'to some extent' would be an understatement.

random keelyn fact #183: i like green apples alot these days.
there's a certain sweetness about the sourness about green apples thats amazingly delicious. like life (fuuhh, so deep. =) )

ooh and yay! my room door can be opened again, by unlocking the toilet door using a pin.
*keemei can be sucha good thief, weii.*
good things do turn out at the end, with some positivity and a good pin turning skill.
*winks*

keelyn~

i'm so happy! =)

2010-08-24T05:59:00.000-07:00

don't you find happiness refreshing?
like my new template/background/blog appearancelaa.

so much happier, no? =)

i am really afraid of being forgotten.
like how slowly, we will drift apart, and we'll be no more than mere strangers.
i have my fears too.

but then again, everyone has too.

i realized that in a way, i kinda like law.
and that everything is only as bad as you let it be.

ps: i am maturing weiiii! *bangga*
pps: dear memory, pleaseeee serve me well.

keelyn.

2010-08-22T09:29:00.001-07:00

I wish I could stop crying forever.

POST BARU KU.

2010-08-19T06:31:00.000-07:00

i don't think there's anyone who's like truly bad.
or truly good.
i think everyone's just kind of in between, and like we try to to stay closer to one side than another, 'cause we don't want to believe that we are really just in between.

funny, eh?

yes, i do get philosophical thoughts at times.
which scares me too sometimes.
*insert hahaha-lol-lmao*

and dear blog, i betrayed you. i finally tumblr-ed.
T.T

*gasps*
yes, but heyy, its purely due to peer pressure.
coughstansherleecoughs

ahh but tumblr is like a photo blog.
not like a blog blog, you know?
and sometimes, nothing beats typing out word by word, of your exact emotions.

but then again, sometimes, you can't describe everything in words.
it gets too tiring.
and then comes in tumblr! =)

i'm beginning to come into terms with everything in my life right now.
the path, the people, yeah everything.
i guess we don;t always get what we want, but it just sucks so bad that you get disappointed, again and again.

and the people... i admit, i get attached too easily.
i worry that i am being too dependent, and i miss the old people in my life i find reasons, stupid excuses not to let new people in.

i block everyone and everything out, because i didn't accept the things happening,
i didn't want to.

but slowly... i find less reasons not to.

ooh i watched 'My Girlfriend Is A Nine Tailed Fox'.
SOOOOO FUNNAYYYY OMG.

Lee Seung Gi and Shim Min Ah is like super awkward in real life but in the movie, the chemistry is ohhlala <3
it has an original plot, (credits to the infamous Hong Sisters) and the cast is just perfect lar.

OOh and Nichkhun and Victoria's WGM is sooo super cute, i can reeallly imagine them as a real life couple! =)

Ahh, and i've been reading The Joy Of Being Happy again.
I love the character, and how the author describes the feelings so well.
Good Job, Solangel. =)

Oooh and yeah, did i mention? i have exams in a month.
and 2 presentations to complete.
ooh wait, make that 3. damn rocket.
and 1 website to create, dateline being end of august.
and 45637829048576389201 pages of things to read, and MEMORISE.

and yes, i did all the stuff mentioned earlier despite the crazy heck load of things to complete.

yes, i've officially lose my mind.

ps: dear readers (prolly 3-4 person) if you see me online, just virtually kill me or something, eh? or annoy me till i start studying.
or something.
ANYTHING.

kthxbai.

keelyn

specific and not random.

2010-08-12T05:45:00.000-07:00

because tan sher lee says that my blog is depressing, and emo.
well guess what?
i'm going to be suuuppperrr dupper happy on this one.
like the cookie monster who got its cookie.

HAPPYYYY?!!!

i can't.

if only being happy on blog is easier than it is in real life.

i mean we see those people and smile, and everyone, literally EVERYONE believes it.
i honestly d not fricken know which smart*ss started the 'you're smiling = you're fine' concept.
like hello!

i guess.... thats why some people feel the need to be strong.

ooh, and you know what i hate?
songs on blogs. or tumblrs.
as nice as those songs are, i do.not.like.it.
so what? you're trying to say that this is the theme song of your life?
or like every post you write, this song correlates?

and! what if, while someone is surfing the web, with their favorite song playing, and came across you blog, and there you have it, your 'theme song' starts to play, at the back probably AS they are reading your private online diary.
i'd just probably close the browser.

WHY?

one, you'd have to find the goddamn small music playing thing which is like crappy, it being so small and conveniently hidden somewhere and all.

and two,... okay, there's no two. i just don't like it lar.

but hey, thats just MY point of view, and doesn't mean its any bad.
and as always there are always exceptions.

like rosh's blogs.

yeah, just cause i'm biased like that.

=)

keelyn.

McD at 3 am

2010-08-07T10:31:00.000-07:00

i am sorry, dear blog, for leaving you for like forever.
okay, so like for loooooonnnnggggggg lar.

everythings just so much to handle, and i feel like typing a post is no longer a simple task.
maybe also because i feel the need to include pictures, thus making it impossible to update anywhere and everywhere.

though i reeealllly, reeeallly want to.
*angelic face*

I DO!

kaylar, maybe i don't.

i watched anoop desai on AMerican Idol, and i just fell in love with his Angel of Mine performance.

i spent rm40 on dinner alone today.
probably not the smartest move with me being financially dependable on my mother and all.

but then again, i didn't regret a cent of it.
i thinks rm40 is just so little to spend on people you love.

i think regrets can determine some people's life so easily.
like for example, me.

i let regrets run my life for 2 months (plus plus) now.

and i am going to let it go now.

or at least i'll try.

then again, i say that every 2 weeks.
or in you readers case, one in every two posts.

which brings us back to square one again.

so lets just suck it in, laugh, breath in and smile.
'cause honestly, what else is there to do after all our whines are ignored?

ps: rosh and peits, i love you guys lar, seriously.

keelyn.